Eat My Dust.

.: Sorrry!! :.

2009-11-29T06:47:00.000-08:00

Haha! Guess what?
I'm gonna go back to tumblr... :P
Why? Well... I cant blog on my iPod and I hardly EVER go to the com anymore... :P
Thousand apologies! :)
http://crispy-apples.tumblr.com

.: Exhausted! :.

2009-11-20T05:41:00.000-08:00

School was normal actually, except for balik time when I found out that Amy is moving.
I'm not close to her but hey, it might affect the balance of the ecosystem in 1A! Or should I say 2A? Haha! Anyway, went to SM with Adlyn today! Had tons of fun! Bought a notebook and STICKERS [super cute!] at Living Cabin. :)

We ate sushi! And Adlyn said the tentacles of the baby octopus tickles her. :P
You know, the one called "chuka idako"?
We ate snowflakes too! Had to rush a bit.. Her brother picked us up. :O
He drove like, really fast! But hey, its more fun than the normal pace my parents drive at.. :P
I'm gonna text a lot this holidays! :D

Shafikah and Harish cried today. I cant really und why... We'll still see each other next year...
:P :P :P :P
I have no feelings. Haha! XD

I really miss my dad... :(
He's somewhere in Asia and I'm stuck in Malaysia. But as soon as he's back, we're gonna go get my iPod!! :) BIG SMILESS!!

I'm so gonna catch up Harish! You wait! =)

.: Do you know your love is the sweetest sin? :.

2009-11-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

I'm like listening to Hero/Heroine non-stop! I just absolutely love that song weyh!
I just submitted my first artwork at DA aka Deviant Art. ^^
Haha... I'm so frustrated...

I want to hate my sister but the truth is deep down, I still love her. She is my own flesh and blood no matter how many times she hurts me. So, I give up. You win, Jie. I'll support you all the way through your life. I'll be your shoulder to cry on and so on. But I think I'll have to find a different person to be my sister whos shoulder I cry on. Fuck, I hate myself.

I found this artist on DA that can draw people. It looks so realistic! She/he drew hero from DBSK! I fav-ed it so you can see it on my DA acc.

Peace out pp!

.: O la la la la :.

2009-11-16T04:05:00.000-08:00

Today was so weird! I came to school feeling so sad and angry. Then in class, happy. Next, devastated and finally smiley! Smiley was because of the prefects meeting. It was hilarious! When Bernice was telling everyone about her orientation week, she keep saying stuff like "wah~!". And they say sounded like Mun Li. Then Tanusha suddenly say that she also look like Mun Li also. We did that cause we finished damn early so we just sort of crapped to waste the time?

Anyway, the meeting finished like 3 something I think. I was like, "Alaaa! But I told my mom to pick me up at 4!" Then mish say "Yea! Me too." Then we started wasting time with Nina and Jeannie. We played this really ridiculous but extremely funny game. Nina's creation. =)

School was fun. Why? I crapped and cried, laughed and died. I practised the dialouge Miss Boey asked us to do with my group and we were laughing like crazy cause I was hyper. XD
OOO!! Before I forget, I found out a Form 4 can be hyper too! Jasmine! I overheard. =P That was when my nose JUST stop bleeding. Sorry if I caused panic. =P

BWAHAHAHAHHAHAA!!!

Anyway... So sad la... Miss Yong and Cik Fairoz wont be here next year. =( *sob*

Haha... I'm laughing right now. Its just so funny how we're fighting/argueing in our blogs. And right now, I'm laughing my ass off thinking "WTH? You called me a whore? ahahahahaa!! The person who pouts in all her pics and wears clothes from Forever21 when she isnt calls ME a whore! This is so hilarious! Hey! Wanna know something... Its not just the three of us! Its a lot of other people. MANY! And seriously, it seems like you only hate me cause.. I'm smart. Pretty lame no? Hey brat! Who says u aint a wannabe? Who? You? Well, you're pretty blind when it comes to yourself. When I said I want a MacBook, you deliberately told me you were getting a MacBook for christmas right? When Adlyn wanted a PSP, you deliberately got a PSP to make her jealous right? Wanna know what I think? You want people to be jealous of you. You cant get enough of the attention. Well, that is the very definition of a BRAT!! Dont ever forget that and I hope it haunts you forever.

.: Aloha? :.

2009-11-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

Hey people! wassup? Went to 1U today to look for one of those winter vests.
Love em!
Want em!
Doesnt have em! =(
I saw this really nice one in Zara. Its white and looks really cool~
But... My dad said the filling, which is polyester, is not good. Cant keep my warm etc. He said should find one with duck down and feather. You guys know what down is right? Its that bushy cute little puff attached to the base of the feather. :)
He says that it is a good insulator.

On the way back from Winter Time [Lame shop! No vest at all! :(] all the way at the old wing, we passed this apple store. So, since I was begging my dad for a Nano, he said go in and see. I was like leaping with joy! BUT! Didnt buy it. Dad said after he comes back from Japan then only buy. :(

I seriously didnt expect the Nano [newest generation] tobe so thin and small! Right now I need help deciding la... Classic? Nano? Classic? Nano? *sigh*

HELP MEEE!!

Tell me what u think in my cbox. :)

Classic :
Goodies
- 160GB memory. (HUGE! I can watch movies weyh!)
- Like a portable hardisk. can carry photos and etc.
- over 40 000 songs.
- 6-7 hours of music etc.
- bigger screen (nicer to watch movies)

Baddies
- Damn big!
- Only in 2 colours
- quite heavy
- Not so much covers.
- No radio.

Nano :
Goodies
- colourful!
- light
- small
- 16 GB (i think)
- video camera!
- Radio!

Baddies
- small screen
- quite small memory space
- a bit too small n light. Like very fragile.

.: Hum a song, make your own :.

2009-11-13T04:20:00.000-08:00

Today was the band farewell party and I brought the camera. :D
I didnt exactly cry cause I really dont know them that well... but I was really going to when Weng Lian suddenly got up and bowed to us and said she's sorry. And we took pictures as well as talk. [As usual] And towards the end, I saw Su Ting crying and I just thought "Its that gonna be me in another 5 more years?" I mean, this year was especially fast to me. Like, one minute its the end of the first semester and the next minute the year is already coming to an end. I tried to pujuk Su Ting and I was so shocked and speechless when she said...

Me : Dont cry la, Su Ting...
S.T : *sob* *sob*
Me : *think* ... You can always come back...
S.T : Yea... But not the same feeling...

I really was speechless...

I really didnt get to know the Form 5 seniors but I know I'll miss them. Its weird but I just know? Its a feeling I really have no words to describe.

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Anyway, gotong-royong was fun! [to me.] Why? Because I did nothing. ABSOLUTELY nothing. Except talk talk talk talk... :D

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This is pretty random but I hummed this when I got back home...

You caught my eye

with your great big smile.

You stole my heart

with your voice.

And you broke into a million pieces...

Like I said... Pretty random huh?

ta-tah!

.: My 100th post? :.

2009-11-11T03:12:00.000-08:00

Wow, I just saw the number when I signed in and I was like, "Whoa! You serious ar?".
Why? So far.. 99 posts! So yeap, this is my 100th post. Class party was awesome, I really did get high on coke! and sweets... and pizza. Lmao!

Anyway, Nina was the most "drunk" of us all because at one point after the pizza, she was dancing like everyone else. But she dance the most hyper and "sexy" so everyone [even me] was woo-ing and dancing along. Lauretta and Harishma also! Today was great except for the last part where we had to clean up. So disgusting la 1A!! Why? Cause, the rubbish bag ade full and tied already and they still stuff in the small hole there. >=(

I'm not happy!

Performed "On Broadway" today on stage. I can tell you, not scary at all. and the band members were talking and talking in the koko room while waiting. Artisha sat on my shoulders! She's really really heavy! But weirdly, it was like a massage cause got pressure on my shoulders. I was super hyper after school. Ask Syaiesta! [I dunno how to spell].

Oh yea. YOU ___________, listen up!
Can you stop copying other people and find yourself?
Can you actually stop being such a wannabe?
Can you grow a heart or maybe a brain?

I dont think you can. I used to really hope that you would change. I really did because you're actually not bad, just spoiled and rotten. Who's fault? Your own. Partly your parents fault but mostly its your fault for letting it happen. WHO LIKED YELLOW FIRST? I am so glad I woke her up! Cause she set me free from you! Of it wasnt for her, I would still be silently condenming you to hell. I bitched about you? Damn right I did. And guess why? Cause you treated me like trash.

You are the most selfish, bitchiest, spoiled and stubborn person I've ever met. You always wanna talk bout you, and you love the attention. Guess what? Now you'll get less 3 people's attention. Sorry for the dissapointment! And cause you love yourself to fucking much, you dont give a damn bout anyone else. I have no idea if its a lie or an act you put up but its really not helping. And, its funny when I think back. I begged you to forgive me and I regret it. Its a waste of time. Ah well... I wont be the one to linger in the past. Soon, you'll just be the nightmare I had.

<3>

.: Tagged by Rodney :.

2009-11-09T07:01:00.000-08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged,you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.At the end, choose at least 10 to be tagged.You have to tag the person who tagged you.WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Water! H2O~
2. last phone call = Adlyn
3. last text message = Adlyn
4. last song you listened to = Fuck You - Lily Allen
5. last time you cried = erm.. a few weeks ago?

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = hell, I've never dated before!
7. been cheated on = pffft! You're asking me?
8. kissed someone & regretted it = I have not kissed anyone!
9. lost someone special = My grand aunty who brought me ice skating for the first time. ='(
10. been depressed = Of course!
11. been drunk and threw up = nope..

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. White
14. Yellow

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Of course
16. Fallen out of love = er.. yes? No?
17. Laughed until you cried = Yeap!
18. Met someone who changed you = Hell yes!
19. Found out who your true friends were = yeap
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yeap
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = NO

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = LOADS!
24. Do you have any pets = Pumbaa! My dog. pfft!
25. Do you want to change your name = I think so
26. What did you do for your last birthday = eat cake?
27. What time did you wake up today = 6.30 [I was late]
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = reading
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = driving license
30. Last time you saw your Mother = a second ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = the bitches
32. What are you listening to right now = silence
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = NOPE
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = the bitches
35. Most visited webpage = Facebook! And One MAnga
36. Where you want to be right now = at a electronic shop buying a laptop for myself. =(
37. Nicknames = "Kong!" "Kongi!" "Yee Rong!" "Becca!" "REBECCA!!" "Oi!"
38. Relationship Status = single
39. Zodiac sign = Libra
41. Elementary? = wazzat?
42. Middle school = SMK St Mary
43. Hair colour = Black
44. Long or short = short
46. Height = dun remember la...
47. Do you have a crush on someone = yea..
48. What do you like aboNope = aboNope????
50. Tattoos = want one...
51. Righty or lefty = right
52. First surgery = no
53. First piercing = EARS
54. First best friend = Fir...
55. First kiss= no
56. First vacation = *stares into space*
57. First crush = ehem.. ehem..

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = turkey ham!
60.Drinking = Water
61. I'm about to = go offline soon
62. Listening to = SILENCE! SHUUUSH!!
63. Waiting for = him..

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = dunnno
65. Get married = dunno
66. Career = dunno
67. Lips or eyes = eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = both!
69. Shorter or taller = taller
70. Older or Younger = older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Both...
73. Sensitive or loud = both~~
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship la! I aint a whore!
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = i dunno

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No
77. Drank hard liquor = no
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Yup...
79. Sex on first date = no
80. Broken someone's heart = no?
81. Had your own heart broken = yes.. many times
82. Been arrested = no
83. Turned someone down = nope
84. Cried when someone died = nt really
85. Fallen for a friend? = last time

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = sometimes
87. Miracles = depends...
88. Love at first sight = maybe
89. Heaven = Yes...of course
90. Santa Claus = no
91. Kiss on the first date = no la.
92. Angels = Yup...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= No...
95. Did you sing today? = in the shower? XD
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = hey, past is past!
98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = Np

.: I see rainbows :.

2009-11-09T04:57:00.001-08:00

I'm really happy today. My grandparents from Australia came today from Johor. :D

I remember when my grandpa told me stories and stuff. Ahhh... Happy memories.. Happy memories... Anyways, I missed the prefects meeting and band practice because of this. :(

First...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FIR!

I was the fourth or fifth to wish her. DAMN IT! Damn you Faizah!! You were first. >:(

Haha! Kiddin! Kiddin! Today was pretty fun. Talked and talked. :) I had to answer sooo many questions to get Pn Parimalah to let me miss the meeting. I'll ask Nina later. :D

.: la la la :.

2009-11-07T05:16:00.001-08:00

I just came home from Fir's birthday party. I think EVERYBODY was wearing football jerseys. I felt really awkward being so boy-ish in my taekwondo outfit. :P
But hey, I was really fun! We played games, ate and did the usual stuff la.. :D
Cake was delicious and I was half an hour late. Why? Cause I almost forgot. Why? I was watching Half Blood Prince with my sister. :P So sorry Fir!!

My grandma so bad. She complained about my dad that "always work". I was like WTH?? He works, so what! He works to feed your big fat mouth! Complain for what? If it wasnt for him, you would be sitting in a chair somewhere in the Old Folks Home! :C

Okay, I just wanted to lepas geram. :D

I dont know what to say today... Rant on my enimies? No mood.

So yeah, this gonna be a short post.

.: la la la :.

2009-11-07T05:16:00.000-08:00

.: As it should be :.

2009-11-05T23:06:00.000-08:00

Well, I just wanna say that I felt kind of funny today. First, I almost forgot that I was going for the CF party. Then, I went hyper. Lastly and the weirdest of all. I didnt get mad when my mom came to pick me up early. Miss Sim was just starting her story and she got cut off by sophia who was calling me, saying my mom was outside. I was really surprised. But, instead of getting mad like I usually do, I didnt. And that was the time Miss Sim was talking about the Holy Spirit which lives in every one of us. I think its a coincidence but I know, its like 50%. Cause, deep down, I somehow believe its not a coincidence.

Oh! Before I forget, yesterday I had dance class and guess what! Priya was there. I was like, "What the hell you doing here Priya?!". :D

Nothing much happened other than that though.

.: Welcome back :.

2009-11-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody! Miss me? Anyways, Tumblr is so slow! So, I got pissed and I'm coming back to blogger. :D [Thank Gawd I didnt delete this. :P] Haha! But hey, I lasted there for 7 posts. The first one was damn fast then slowly it fade and became slower and slower... So yup, I'm gonna repost the Tumblr ones here. :D

Exam week.
Anyway, today I had my history paper and I SUCKED! I think I definitely wont get an A this time. AND! I blame you-know-who. [my history teacher] Damn her to hell! I absolutely despise her. Makes me soooo mad! My math paper 2 was easy except for question numbah…

*scratches head*

14! Why? You might ask… Because, the answer is so damn long and I’m not sure if I should round it off or just put the long one or just put the answer with one decimal point. Most of my friends went cuckoo with that question too. Thank God I’m not the only one.

*phew*

I am so glad I came online today. By the way, can someone tell me what the indent-thingy is? [To all you ppl who dont really know me, I use the word thingy a lot!]
hehe… Anyways, like I was sayin… I am so glad i came online because I thought tomorrow only got science and maths.. Halleluyah I read Gaya’s blog… :D or not I wouldnt have known that tomorrow also have art paper 1.
OMG, look at me. I have exams tomorrow and I’m sitting here blogging.. =P
*runs away*

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Today was really really great! First of all, I want to say all the bad stuff. Get it out of my system, ya know? BM was super hard and I tembak-ed 80% of the whole paper!

*smacks forehead*

That was the hard part. I thought Geo would be really really tough. BUT! It wasnt! :D I studied really hard and special thanks to Adlyn and Lauret cause revising with you guys really helped me remember. :D Oh, and thanks to Michelle Chong for telling me bout Jelebu. Unfortunately, I still couldnt answer the question. I know the place with the lowest taburan hujan but I didnt know where Jelebu is on the map! And I’m sitting there repeating, “Damn! Damn! Damn! DAMN! DAMN!”

Anyway…
Its over! Its over! Until next year shall I touch my books! :D
Lol! Okay… After school today, I went to Selayang Mall [St Marian Central] with Melissa, Michelle, Misheru, Wong [Charmaine], Tiffany and Jeannie to celebrate Tiff’s birthday!! Its this Sunday so remember to wish her! I bought her this houglass thingy but its the oil one so… Its adorable. Haha! Plus, Melissa, Misheru and I also bought…
STICKERS!!

Hey! Dont go saying we’re childish or what! I dont effin care! They’re cute!
I belanja Melissa mcflurry and Tiff belanja all of us lunch at Cone Pizza that cost 100+! *gasps* She wouldnt take the money… :C She only took Jeannie’s one which was because she promised. Damn it! Melissa and Wong wore school uniform. We saw LOADS of st marians there. I mean, duh! Selayang Mall is St Marian Central! :D

Then, at 5.30 like that, we went back to Tiff’s house where we cam whore-ed and talked like crazy! We tried to do the burst one but it was so fast and we kept laughing. And when we talked, we talked about the people in China and how they eat stuff. DID YOU KNOW THEY EAT BABIES?? AND MONKEY BRAIN?? *vomits*
Overall, it was a damn great day!

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Michelle : You know, they eat those babies that people abort?

Everyone : Eeeewww!!

Jeannie : They eat the girl baby.

Everyone : Yerrr!!!

Michelle : They say its good for your health.

Everyone : Disgusting!!!

Me : That's the problem... Since its good for their health and crap, they live longer and less people die. No wonder China's population is so high...

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Great! I’m banned from the computer the day I finish my fucking exam!
Real reasonable mom, really… I mean, you really should ban me after I study like hell to get grades that you wouldnt be proud of anyway. Hell, next time I wont fucking study then!

Wouldnt that be way easier?

Okay, she got mad at me for not practicing music. But hey, she seemed okay!! Wanna know when she banned me? WHEN MY DAD CAME HOME!! GO! COVER BEHIND HIM! MAKE HIM TAKE YOUR SIDE THEN!! I hate to say this but…
Right now, I really hate you, mom.

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I had a totally awesome day today! But first, let me talk about yesterday…

31 October

Well, my mum found out that my sis’s tuition already stopped so I made it on time to the Farewell. *phew* Anywayz, overall…

It was pretty boring for us probies.. :)

Well, I didnt mind serving the form 5’s but when it was our turn to eat… The food was already so little because it went through 4 hungry forms. The food wasnt great anyway so no regrets really. The form 3 then sang songs and stuff and Josie, you are just so awesome!!! She sang while Leava played the guitar.. Damn freaggin nice! :D Mostly its just talk and pictures so the place was really noisy.. :D Miss Goh gave a speech and so did Pn Parimalah… Esther too! She was like choking back the tears.. :(

THE END!! Oh yea, I’ll post a convo later.. damn funny.. XD

1 November

Woke up, brushed my teeth, got dressed, went tuition and yidi-yidi, yada-yada… Then after tuition, went to Selayang Mall where my sister, mother and me ate SUSHI!! :D Then my sister and I went walking around and she said she wanted to buy the ODM watch which was freaggin nice!! Anyway, she was bending down when suddenly Negaraku started playing!! Then she went into hyper mode and started saying things like “Look at all these people! They dont respect Negaraku!” “Stand straight!” “Dont laugh!”

My mum actually bought the RM399 watch for her.. AND ME!!! For my birthday.. At first I was happy but then I thought.. I regretted it cause I think my dad was gonna get me an iPod nano but now I dont think he will.. :(

Daddy daddy!! PLEASE, I want a nano!! I can give u de watch? :(
Oh well.. Today, my mom was really funny.. I dont knw why… but she was just hilarious! I almost pee-ed in my pants.. ALMOST!! I didnt la.. XD My dad is in Shanghai for a week.. I miss him… :( XD I’m such a baby… XD

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STOP

I shall resume ppl!!

.: Supah Happie :.

2009-10-29T06:07:00.000-07:00

I'm really super happy today!! =D
Adlyn is not going to ________!!! *shhh*
*claps like mad!*

Science and Maths was easy except for a a few questions.
hey, no ones perfect right? :D
Seni... *shakes head*
I did study but only one question I studied came out.. TT.TT

Science paper [objective] question number 3 is sooo stupid..
Someone please tell me why a pencil is 3 cm?? AND!! the answer is...

3.1cm..

LAMOO!!!

okok... gtg.. study study!

*gambateh!*

.: Guess what..:.

2009-10-27T02:27:00.000-07:00

Guess what! I'm gonna change to tumblr... Dont worry, I'll still check my cbox here.. and maybe still post...
BUT!!! Link me okay??

http://crispy-apples.tumblr.com

Thankssssss!!!!

.: Hate her :.

2009-10-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

I absolutely despise her.

Who? You might wonder... Why, its my "totally awesome history teacher, Pn. R! I love her!".
HAH!
The day I say that is the day I get alzheimer or hysteria.
I loathe her.
I hate her.
I despise her.
I dislike her.

She sucks as a history teacher.

First of all, she talks to the class like we're a bunch of Standard 1 students.
I remember Miss Goh [Principal] saying that the teachers there are not going to treat us like primary school students so we have to get over our cultural shock. Well, she didnt say that exactly but something somewhat like it so correct me if you remember. Guess what? I did get over the cultural shock and I'm so used to being talked to by teachers like normal people and not little kids.
I get really irritated when she talks to us in her bloody sing-song tune.
Hell-looo! This is not a singing class, bitch! Its a history class!!
And, we know you can sing and dance, no need to show off. We dont bloody care!
Go dance while you teach the tarian students!!

I've been running around telling ppl this on the day she said it so I guess most of you know...

She asked me to REWRITE A WHOLE TOPIC'S WORTH OF NOTES WHICH I JUST DID THE NIGHT BEFORE.

Why? Cause... *drumroll*

My handwriting was ugly. BIG WHOOOP!

Besides, I can read it! So can my classmates. AND!!

She doesnt even read the notes when she marks.

She scans the page, according to my observation.

Then, I was thinking... Its my notes. I'm having exams. Why does she need to e able to read it?

Plus, she just reads from the textbook. EXAMPLE...

"Okay, sekarang saya nak... kamu! Baca the first paragraph."

"K-kaum Iban mera-yai Hari Gawai bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA

BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA"

"Okay, thank you... Next girl..."

" * Now she sputters nonsense on the next paragraph and if we're unlucky

the paragraph is long and if the girl is not pluent in BM, she will stutter

and stuttter and stutter and stutter and stutter and stutter...... and she

breathes and stutters even more and occasionally Pn. R will help her

pronounce certain words.* "

"Next..."

See how it drags on and on? Isnt that a HUGE waste of time??!! AND, even with exam a week away, we havent finished the syllabus. Awesome, aint she?

Damn it, I need more kit kat to continue... *runs to kitchen*

...

*runs back*

With us trailing at snail's pace, there will be absolutely no time to revise the last 2 topics...

Then it gets worse, I told my mom about it and she sides her! And that is exactly why I dont tell my mom what happens everyday. She even said "Thats your problem becca, you always think you're right!" I wanted to laugh so bad!

Why? Because my mom does that the most and she doesnt realise it! Some more want to say me!

I'll say "See, now you're angry!"

And guess what she says... "No I'm not! Who says I am?"

And I'll just sit there and shake my head..

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Now, the Flute and Clarinet Workshop. BORING!

Flute : Keiko Nakagawa

Clarinet : Lawrence

Clarinet one less playing then flute. He said something about double tongue. That wa AWESOME!! And I wanna learn that... =P

Then there was a mini concert and Keiko was really really good. Her fingers were so fast and... Its just unexplainable..

So far a great day because I missed tuition but... tomorrow got... TT.TT

.: Sick and tired :.

2009-10-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

I am so sick of living under someone's wing.
I am so sick of asking for permission.
I am so sick of begging.
I am so sick of my mother.

The moment I wake up and go downstairs, I am greeted by my mother "advising" me about the usage of air cond. and stuff. Sheesh mom, I woke up late. I know!
I woke up at 11 am +, big deal! I didnt set the timer for the air cond to off, I know.

Scolding me is one thing but comparing me to Jie again really hurts me.
So, eaarly morning already I cried.
I only kept quiet and said "Yes, mom." because of dad.

I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE COMPARING ME TO HER.

Its really frustrating being reminded of how someone else is better than you.

.: I'm so-so-so sorry :.

2009-10-09T00:52:00.001-07:00

Erm, well... Fir knows this cause I just told her today...

Yesterday, my dad showed me a little notebook of mine that I wrote in when I was ten.
The first page was my biodata. And the second...
I wrote...

I wish my mom would just...

and I wrote in point form, all the ways I wanted her to die.
I read it and after the first two points, I started crying. I felt really bad.
My dad said that mom found it while she was cleaning up. Then I felt even worse.
Well, I ran into the kitchen with tears puring down my face and hugged her.
I repeated again and again. I'm sorry. I was sobbing so hard.

So ppl, never do anything when you're angry!!
I mean it...

THIS might happen to YOU!
So..
Learn from my mistake...

.: T(h)anks = BOOM! = Ouch :.

2009-10-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

I need to rant a bit okay? So bear with it for a little while...

Yes, mom. I'm wasting my time blogging, listening to songs and playing cards.
I should be studying or practicing music right? Well...

Think...

I hardly go on the computer and why? because I'm too busy finishing my bloody homework. The most I touch the computer is during holidays right?

What about JIE??

Yes, what about her? She goes on the com more often than I do right? And she's sitting for SPM this year. How come I never see you telling her that? Why dont you ban her?
My exam is nothing compared to what she's facing this year and I get scolded? ME?

Now I'm sitting in front of the com crying. Why must you love her more?
I noticed. I notice everything about this whole family and nobody realises me except my friends. To hell to those who say family comes first! They were never there for me.
I was there when mom needed someone to complain to about Jie...
I was there for Jie when she cried...
Who's there for me?
Haha! I sound so emo... XD

Then before dinner, what did you say mom?
Oh yeah..
I mentioned about the iPod Nano I wanted for my birthday and mom said...
"Find my player first..."
No matter how many times I tell her I've looked everywhere, she just kept asking like maybe I'm hiding it on purpose. WTF?!

Jie said dad said (huh?) that I am very vulgar.
Made me think of why... I couldnt answer myself.. so, I have a question for all you ppl!
Tell me if you've ever had a question about yourself but couldnt answer it... And tell me what the question is!

Today's exam was... Okay I guess...
I rewrote my english paper [section B] 3 times!! cause..
First one : too long. Bout 200 + words =P
Second one : still too long. bout 180 +?
Third one : 160+. Thats when I thought "The hell with it! I'm handing this in!"

Then, BM paper 2...
My bahagian C, I wrote twice cause I put the perenggan wrong..
So, when I came home today, my finger's were aching..

SHIT! Tomorrow got SENI!!! =O
Die. die. die. die. die. die. die.
*slpas self*
Okay... =/

I feel like something is taking over my social life...
Its called studies... I have no time for anything nowadays..
Sometimes I just scream and bang doors... It makes me feel better but sooner or later the feeling will return, stronger than ever...
So, I was really happy today because, I had no class to jaga and no spotcheck what-so-ever!
So, I spent time with my buddies!! =D <3

Even though its October, I still get presents! =D
So ppl, I dont mind getting late pressies!!! =DD

Teh Yi Ting = Frog phone/thumbdrive-hanger-thingy
Ling Mei Shin = A silver shiny bear phone-hanger-thingy
Melanie = A plushie which is a cow that looks like a mop
Adlyn = A doggie plushie
Nina = A hello kitty-thingy

Thats all I remember... =P

P.S. Is there a Debate Club in school? I wanna join! XD

.: I'm Getting Old :.

2009-09-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

30th September 2009.

*guitar plays*

Sleep well

Tucked tight

Make sure you hide the night

This was for the best...

Stay out of sight

Fled the scene of the crime

To avoid an arrest

We will brawl for the cause

That's all we've got

No matter the cost

We're singing

Whoa-oh

Whoa-ah-oh

Whoa-oh

Whoa-ah-oh

Whoa-oh

Whoa-ah-oh

Oh, no, no, no

(We the kings - Whoa)

I got up and pressed the snooze button. An extra 5 minutes couldnt hurt. It was my birthday after all. I decided to "treat" myself. =D

I got up today dreading school until I realized what day it is.

30th September. My birthday.

A smile stretched across my lips. Thinking back 5 hours ago, I recalled who was the first one to wish me exactly at midnight. Firzana. Before that was Mich and Melissa, wishing me an advance birthday. 2 minutes past midnight and the phone rang again. Written on the sender's column was Teh Yi Ting. Another person wishing me a happy birthday. I glanced at the clock. 1.32 am. I need to sleep! My mind screamed. My phone rings again. Adlyn. A grin swept over my face. I felt tears gathering in my eyes.

It didnt happen!

It wasnt like that year!

Thank you!!

And just as I was falling asleep, my phone gave a little beep but I was fast asleep. Lost in a world of bliss and freedom.

I checked my phone this morning and found 3 more birthday wishes. The grin widened.

I threw the blanket off me and went to brush my teeth. I got ready for school but stopped for a while at the door of my room.

What if its like last year?

I shrugged it off and went down stairs anyway. The lights were on and as I walked down, My heart felt light and it seemed as if the whole eerie downstairs was singing. I went to the study room and packed my bag. I thought mom or maybe dad was already downstairs. I went to the kitchen carrying my bottle and looked around. Sadly, nobody was there. Just an empty kitchen with the steamer whizzing. I finished up my stuff and just wanted to go upstairs. As i walked up, mom was coming down. She opened her arms and I hugged her.

"Happy birthday, Becca" The smile that was waiting to appeared finally saw its chance and showed. "Thanks"

I didnt see my dad this morning. He wasnt back for dinner. I just asked my mom and she said he has dinner.

At school, from as early as 6 until 1, my friends were wishing me happy birthday. Even in the morning when I was carrying teacher's bag etc, I couldnt help smiling. A smile that stretched until it touched my ears. Wei Qing wished me also and when I went to the foyer after carrying one teacher's bag, She saw me so I smiled at her. Then she said.

"Why are you smiling?"

"I'm happy ma.. My birthday ma.. Takkan my birthday I want to be sad..." I pouted.

"But you dont need to smile like this." Then she did this face ---> = }]

So yes, I was SUPER HAPPY TODAY!!!

After band, I walked out as always and heard this familiar voice calling my name. I looked around and saw Aunty Rosemary waving to me to go there. I walked out and she said...

"Have you seen Artisha?"

"I think she's still in the band room."

But even after that, she kept calling me to go there. So, I just went and she said my mom cant fetch me so she's fetching me back. I didnt believe at first because... of all that scary crap my parents fill my head with! So I asked if I can call my mom to check. And yeah... She's right..

And... when I went home, my heart felt hard to the ground. My dad wasnt there and nearing dinner time, my mom suddenly sms me and asked me what I would like to eat.

"McDonald? KFC? Cone Pizza? Or what?" I remember her asking. I said McDonald without asking why. That time I was still quite cheerful. Then... I spent my dinner in front of the TV with my sister and (irritating) grandmother. She nagged me to take a bath and I seriously felt like screaming "Let me be!" but hey, I cant do that. Jie didnt eat her burger... I ate my french fries and burger while watching I Am Legend.

My mom wasnt there

*crack*

My dad wasnt there

*crack*

After dinner, I went to my room and cried a bit... It's childish I know, but I cant help but feel a little alone. Then mommy came home and lit a candle and put it on a slice of cake. I ate most of it while they just sat there being nice and all... And at 10+pm, my dad came home and sms me happy birthday.

*shatter*

Maybe he thought it was special to be the last one to wish me, it isnt!

.: Boo hoo hoo :.

2009-09-17T19:05:00.000-07:00

Selamat,
Hari Raya,
Kepada saudara serta saudari,
Setahun,
Hanya sekali!
Merayakan hari yang mulia ini.

Selamat Hari Raya to all the Muslims in the world!
And...
Happy holidays to everyone else!!

I know, I havent blogged in a very very long time...
So so sorry people!!
Once again, my blog is dead... XD

I got the playne house photo and the class photos already and I look horrible in both.
Waaaaa....
oh well... there's always next year... but..
GAYA IS MOVING TO CBN!!

Forgetting that for a moment, my niece is here again...
And...
She is annoyin!!
I woke up to my stupid grandma "talking" (more like screaming) in BM to the maid...
Haizz...

Oh well, my sis is MIA..
I havent seen her since I woke up.
[MIA means Missing In Action... I got it from Sin Yee, de Form 4 prefect.]

Being a prefect was more tiring and stressful than I thought it would be and seriously...
(From now, I'm gonna call Mich. C as Mish and Mich. L as Mich. ok?)
I really want Mish to be a prefect and I want her mom to just let her do what she wants..
She's really hurt by the looks of it and at home, I cant help but feel so stupid cause I cant do anything to help at all!
I cant even cheer her up! BUT! One thing is for sure, Mish....
You have us. Your friends who will always be there for you! Me, Teh, Ling and everyone else.

Phew... Nice to actually say it out loud..
I get more irritable now and I think its a phase..
Well, its only a theory but..
I say its a phase because when my sister was this age, she was rampaging in the house everyday. This was the time when she pushed me off the green metal bench and I fell back and my head hit the grill for the long kang.
Now, after 4 years I think, she's okay with the ocassional tantrum...

The thing I dont like about being a prefect is that I hardly ever see my friends.
It sort of makes me sad..

OKayy... I guess thats all..
*vanishes*

.: No, mommy. I dun wanna go... :.

2009-08-28T19:27:00.000-07:00

I slept for 7 hours only today. Why? Cause my "niece" came over yesterday and stayed overnight.

Then, she woke up at 7-8 like that and when I tried to go back to sleep, she go and disturb me..

"Aunty, whats this?"

"Aunty!"

"Aunty, whats that?"

"Aunty, the floor there cold ar?"

"Aunty, there leh?"

She's annoying but tons of fun. Yesterday, I practically rolled on the floor because of her.

She was running after my sister, flapping her hands up and down while screaming, because she took her "dog". Its just a plushie.

So now, I'm YAWNING...

I cannot believe holiday is ending already!

Then have to go back to school and... and.. greet... and... do tasks...

Haish...

Right now, I absolutely <3>

21 guns by Green Day.

Its nice..

Holiday has been nice and all... Its nice that my friends arent fully occupied with homework like they normally are...

How do I know? Well, for one, they sms more often than usual.. XD

I'm DEFINITELY not sating I dont like it.. I've been bored a few times also...

Its nice to actually touch my Wii again..

Its been MONTHS and WEEKS since I touched it..

Anyway, other than tuition, I have MUSIC CLASS... urgh..

*faints*

.: ATTENTION PPL!!! :.

2009-08-24T06:19:00.000-07:00

PPL!!

PLEASE OH PLEASE OH PLEASE!!!

Add my new email...

apples_gummybears@hotmail.com

Thy!! =D

.: rubs eyes YAWN!! :.

2009-08-21T03:58:00.001-07:00

Yes, again...

Thousand apologies!

Hehe... So this week was really stressing...

As most of you all know, I was selected as a proby prefect [prefect on probation]..

And I must say...

ITS SO FRUSTRATING!!!

Why? Well, everytime I see or bump into a prefect, I have to greet them with the song and dance. Unless they say they're busy.

Plus, I have to do tasks! From Form 5 prefects especially...

Form 2 done already..

Want me to list the tasks?

Done

Task || From || Comment

1. Perform a "cute" dance in front of your class. || Teh Mei Yeen || Not yet ask her to sign

2. Sing "You Belong With Me" on the bench in the canteen.=D || Fiona Shazlin || Very confident! Cool Gila

3. Go to the quadrangle to dance aerobic dance in the morning. || Chan Pei Ling || Good job. Keep it up. Very Sporting.

4. Go to the staff room and recite a poem aloud. The poem is of your choice but it should be about students. C= || Lai Weijean || [Miss Sim] Self-composed

poem. Well done.

5. Promote my blog. Tan Ben Lee -havent signed.. XP

[http://www.i-mint.info/] *Please go and

click on one advertisment. Please only

click once everytime you go online. THY!*

6. Entertain me now. [I sang You Belong With Arlyna Good job! Still can be

Me] improve.

7. During junior recess, promote this pen and Keshailla -Saksi- Very brave.. C=

make sure they wanna buy it. Get any

junior prefects to sign as proof.

8. Ask Mrs Ng for 5 reasons why she loves to Poh Su Ann Mrs Ng:Have to think out

be a teacher in St. Mary. Proclaim it lah!

through PA system on behalf of her one

fine morning.*I only did hal of it.. XD*

9. Massage my hand. =P Aida Mahirah Nice voice but can increase more!*other task*

10. Read the form 2 class and toilet report. Rathiga good and your voice is loud

11. Shout "Everybody lets save orangutans" Nur Syahirah Its loud enough but not so

in the canteen twice as loud as you can Khanum clear.

One more task was to make 4sc1 applaud my work [speech etc]. I asked them what they wanted and they said "sing!!". So yeah, I sang You Belong With Me like they wanted and the funniest thing was when one of them "from choir I think] said "Eh, wanna join choir?".

I was like "I cant! I join band..."

Go band!! XD

Other all so teruk2! [The task I mean]

Got one I'm suppose to rap the school song into the PA system!!! > <

wuu... wuu..

Another one have to do aerobic dance again.. Haiz...

The prefects just love the quadrangle and PA system you know!!! XP

Still got a lot of work..

.: OMG! :.

2009-08-16T06:04:00.000-07:00

Yes I know I havent posted in a very very very long time..

For that...

Thousand apologies!

Anyway, went to Pavillion today and bought...

NOTHING!! Everything was so damn expensive. Today , overall has been a great day.

Then later we ate dinner and there was a pasar malam nearby so we went and just walked around. Then, jie saw this really uber cute jacket! I said i wanted first but nooooo she saw it first... =C

Its so adorable! Its a white jacket with little monsters all over it!

My superpoke pet [Munchie] so neglected.

Havent played with her/him in weeks!! XD

Come to think of it... I havent been facebooking much either...

PROJECTS!!! ALL BECAUSE OF PROJECTS!!

Haiya... Got 2 projects to do...

Geo and Moral... ><

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

Okay.. My birthday is coming soon...

In exactly 1 month and 2 weeks.. [i think] =P

So... here is my wishlist!! XD

I know... I crazy want to do wishlist when still so long... XD

Wishies!

1. Laptop

2. Sneakers

3. Comics [Gempak]

4. Clothes... [I'm trying to be more girly but please no pink] =O

5. HEADPHONES!! [Not too big... not too small]

6. Phone

7. Hats

8. Jackets

9. Sims 3

10. Photoshop

11. My own camera [I dun need a big big one. Secondhand also can! I'm sick of sharing with my sis!]

12. New port for my iPod shuffle...

Hehe... Its a long list...

Anybody wondering why I didnt put books?

Well, its because my taste in books are kinda changing every day...

I actually dont stick to one section anymore.. I just see what interests me... ^^

.: Bye bye :.

2009-07-31T07:27:00.000-07:00

I cried. Its so sad!
I'm so SAD~

*cries*

Okay, to those who are not from my school or blur, Cik Masreana [History teacher] is going to leave the school. At first I didnt cry but... ehemm... =P

Funniest thing was after teacher left the classroom and Gaya said...
"Good. Finally your hormones are working, Amy."
Cause, she cried the most. More than me or anybody.

Well, amy, your "macho-ness" is GONE!! SAYONARA BABEH!! XD

I gave Cik Mas a drawing.

Okay... Special message to Cik Mas.

I will miss you so so much and I'm so so so so sorry if I ever made teacher angry!
I love you, teacher! *hugs*

Lmao....

.: Gaah!! Stresssss :.

2009-07-28T06:55:00.000-07:00

Yes, I am super duper stressed this week.

Lets see...

Thing to do on Wednesday :
-Pass up Prefect Form to Pn. Parimalah.
-Pass up sejarah folio.
-Give form for the trip to the science center to Pn. Charanjeet.
-Do karangan and pass up on friday.
-Jaga attitude. Dun wan teacher scold n say I not layak to become.

Okay... Dont get any funny ideas! I dont want teacher to scold because later very sakit hati...
I kena before in standard 5. Teacher say I not layak become Ketua Darjah and I ver sad after that..
Haha!!

Tommorrow will be sooo stressing! *faints*
*wakes up*
sigh...

I gonna die ade la... haih..

Then got anyaman...

My stupiiid maths teacher did it again.
Now, wanna throw rubbish also have to ask.
Then when ask she dont let.
STUPID~
She defines idiocy.

I still have so much homework, and i can still blog.
*slaps self*

.: Die la... :.

2009-07-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

School is a load of crap.
C. R. A. P.
CRAP!

Its boring. [except for the bunch of friends I really love and cherish. =D]
The teachers suck. [except Miss Yong and other cool teachers like her.]
Some irri bitches in class.
Homework.
Projects.

ITS KILLING MEEEEE!!!
HALP!!!

You see, I did my anyaman yesterday and today I'm doing my Sejarah Folio. I spent the whole after noon and I still havent finish..

I havent finish and I can still blog..
*smacks forehead* ARGH!
FOCUS BECCA!! *Slaps self.*

OK..
Ciao ppl... Gotta do my work..

.: Sien :.

2009-07-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

So cute rite?

Okay.. Now I'll start ratting and cursing...

I hate my fucking class teacher..
She's the teacher that blinks at you and keeps saying "nih" "nih"

She made me so mad!
First she say nobody can walk without her permission. I can understand that.. My class memang..
Then when Gaya wanna walk a few steps to Nina's place to give the Sejarah Folder, she say cannot. Gaya wanna ask Nina bout the Sejarah Folio... CANNOT...

Thats only half of the story! Then when she's teaching, I put my textbook up and sleep. Textbook up cannot see mah... Then she so idiotic sudd say that one also cannot.
Then Alynna say, "Cikgu, orang kat belakang pun buat." and she did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

She just pretend like she didnt hear.. I wanna KILL HER ADE LA!!!

She redefines stupidity.
She redefines annoying.
She redefines idiocy.
She redefines malicious.
She redefines horrible.
She redefines stutter.
She makes the bad teachers look way better.
She makes everyone suffer.
She cant speak english.
She teaches in BM n English because "ade orang tak faham."
She's an example of the reason the Govt. is changing it to BM.

What I'm saying is...
She is a HORRIBLE TEACHER!!!!!!!!!

I hate her.
I hate her.
I hate her.
I hate her.
I hate her.
I hate her.

And for the rest of the period, me and Lynna were drawing pictures of us and a whole bunch of other students killing her with several gory ways like shooting her.
You might say its not gory rite?
Well, we kinda exaggerated the blood so it was kinda gory..
I felt so much relief after that.

I found back my Sejarah Folio and I'm..
OVERJOYED. ESTATIC. HAPPY.

Woots~!

My classmate, Huang Jing Yin found it.

THY SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

.: Behold! My mascot! :.

2009-07-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

Drumroll....

Presenting....

Rkyr's mascot of 2009...

FLIX!!!!!!!!!!

.: Yawn :.

2009-07-21T05:43:00.000-07:00

School was okay today...
Nothing much happened...
I wanna watch Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince & Ice Age 3!!!!!!!!!

Mommie... I wanna go watch...
She just said maybe we go watch on weds. [tomorrow]
WOOTS!!!!!!!!!!

Cant wait for the concert this saturday!!
It'll be my first one! Woots...
I know la, I like jacoon..
Can you blame me?

Wakaka...

Yer.....
My Sejarah Folio LOST!!!!!!!!

LOST!!!!!!!!

I think Cik Mas gonna ask me print out again... ><
I am sooo angry!
URGH!!!!!!!!!

See la..
Now I no mood wanna blog ade..
Later la..
hish..

.: Blerk! :.

2009-07-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

My mom just ugut me!! Went to 1 u today n my sister threw a big tantrum.
I bought a whole lotta books! They even had the Dear Dumb Diary series sale summore.
Den I found Inkspell! Inkdeath I saw but I cant find!! ><

Next time la...
Xansierra or something has her first comic already!
Published by Gempak [Duh!!]
I support her/ him even if her/his work is kinda funnny...

Bon Odori was so... dusty...
*cough* *cough*

Next year I need someone to go with me!! I was so bored cos Jie went with her friend..
I'm determined not to let CF be like that this year!!

Cf = Comic Fiesta.
Place = Sunway Pyramid
Time = ?
Date = ?

I'll let you guys know...
Anyone going PLEASE tell me....
^^

.: Oh Shit :.

2009-07-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

Cik Norizah was so irri today. She wouldnt let us take the picture for the school magazine.

And! She just keep "ni" "ni" "ni"!!! So Irri!!! I wanted to KILL HER!!

Yesterday was my fathers bday. Some cousins came over and surprised him... Yipee!!

I just found out yesterday that one of my cousins read this blog..

TAG LAAAA....

I dont mind you reading but TAG!!

Its a must!!

I hate Pn Thilaga, she give so much to do!!

Now I kurang suka CM ade... Keep scolding us and targeting Gaya only...

Haizzz...

Shit! I havent finish de anyaman thingy!! Teachers gonna kill me...

I hate being form 1.

I hate Malaysia.

I hate the PM.

I hate Najib.

He sucks.

He's stupid.

And I say that cause...

He is.

He wanna chg back to BM... [Yes, I'm still rampaging about this]

Form 1 sucks!

All that effing stress!! The teachers all crazy one..

All repeat the same ol thing..

"Shh!"

"Please keep quiet!"

"Ei! 1A!"

"I give demerit ar.."

"Ni nak kena ni"

"Silent"

"Semua orang duduk!"

And Everybody still does it... Oh, the irony...

Wakakaka...

I want a new skin...

Going to see movie this Sunday..

Woots!! Eh, can go see harry potter instead ar?

I wanna watch tat!

Bands new warm up or whatever you call it is WAAAYY more fun!!

Everybody hold hands and run as fast as they can for 100 meters!! Then do 5 times...

Short ppl won the first time..

Second time was so funny cos the middle ppl was lagging behind but the tall n short ppl in front. And we're holding hands so its like a big U.

Wakakaka

.: Hey hey:.

2009-07-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

To Fir, Nureen, Mia, Farah and everyone who knows and loves Nazdaiyana...
Her hair is SHORT now!!! Above the shoulder...
I smsed her the other day and she told me in one long sms...

"Wey kedit aq tinggal 5 sen je bb da lme aq x topup nnti aq ad mse aq msg kO k
kirim slm fir n kwn yg laen aq x akn lpe kOrg jgn risau aq akn rindu kO gle ah"

So... WEY KORG!! NAZ KIRIM SALAM TAU!!!!

haha..

Hate tuition... Hate everything... Din und anything today cause 2 weeks ade I didnt go..
So the teacher explaining in front, I just "uh huh" and nod.
XD

Okay, okay..
Nureen is half right.. Hey Monday's songs are nice and the lyrics rock!!

BUT!!!!

Paramore's lead singer has vocals in the bag!! She rocks!! She can sing so high n so low... wow...

Downloading Hey Monday's song now... wakakakaka...

.: Stupid Government :.

2009-07-10T01:38:00.000-07:00

I just want to say...

The government is very stupid. I am Form 1 this year and I will be in Form 4 in 2012. By then, the Maths and Science will be in BM. I say...

ITS SO STUPID

I go form 4, BM...
Form 5, BM...
Form 6?? English right??
University?? ENGLISH RITE??!!

This is the precisely the reason why SINGAPORE, the tiny island below us, is better educated than us.

HEL-LOO!!! ENGLISH IS THE INTERNATIONAL LANGUAGE AS IN MOST OF THE WORLD SPEAK IT!!!!

BM??

ONLY MALAYSIANS. SO... IF I ONLY KNOW BM...

I'LL BE SO FUCKING LOST EVERYWHERE ELSE!!!!!!
THINK LA YOU STUPID ASS HOLES!! WE SUFFER RITE??
THEN WE HAVE TO LEARN BACK MATH AND SCIENCE IN ENGLISH AFTER SPM!!!

ITS SO

S.T.U.P.I.D.

STUPID!!

THINK ABOUT US, THE STUDENTS WILL YA??

My father said, "We take one step forward, 10 steps back"
Understand? No?

Let me explain...

One step forward means our education level went higher when we learned mt and sc in english. We move back 10 steps when we change it back to bm.

Seriously ppl, if they do change, I'll immigrate to Singapore...
I dont care that its a shit-water country...
The fucking education there is WAY BETTER!!!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Wanna know something??
Today, everytime I thought or talked about this I cried. Just a bit.
Its stupid I know but I couldnt control it...
Imagine having other ppl who have forgotten what its like to be a kid struggling with homework and exams at school... Whatever they say is taken, not even asking the people's opinion. I have suddenly liked Dr. Mahatir... Why? Cause he supports English not BM... He said so in his blog...

Spread it around... Vote for english at his blog...
http://chedet.co.cc/chedetblog/

And right now as I type, millions of parents and students are outraged and unhappy with this unfair decision..

THINK ABOUT IT!!!

I calmed down nw... At school I was mostly sulking and cursin the govt. Swearing, screaming, stomping, you name it, I did it... I even sweared the govt in front of a teacher with the F word... Accidentaly of course...

So, let me say this again...

FUCK YOU GOVT.!! GO ROT AT HOME CAUSE I DONT CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And they expect patriotisme when they are such shoddy Governs... Figures...
Sure most of you dont care right?? But hey, put yourself in my shoes and I'll put me in yours...
How would you feel??? Huh?

Dont came telling me you dont care cause its got nothing to do with you!!
It has! Every FUCKING thing the govt says has an impact on every single one of us!!

Yes, I'm probably crappin now... =P

Hel-loo you fucking govt!! So what if you save millions when you convert back to BM?? DO YOU REALLY NEED THAT??
Isnt our education more important or you guys just dont care anymore?!

And I really hate to say this but it has crossed my mind that its because of the chinese and tamil schools that we got into this situation. Not only them but some people who are just TOO EFFING LAZY to study who failed UPSR are also the cause...

So hey, if any govt agents reading this, go ahead... I DARE YOU TO CONVERT IT BACK TO BM!!
If you do..

WATCH AS THE NUMBERS OF PUPILS ENROLLING IN GOVT SCHOOLS DROP AND PRIVATE/INTERNATIONAL SCHOOLS OVERFLOW WITH PUPILS...
WATCH AS THOSE WHO PASSED UPSR OR PMR WITH FLYING COLOURS GET WORSE MARKS..
WATCH MALAYSIA GET RATED AS THE COUNTRY WITH VERY LOW EDUCATION...
WATCH STUDENTS WORK THEIR ASS OFF JUST TO GET A PASSING GRADE...
WATCH THE NUMBER OF "PONTENG" CASES RISE...

Go ahead and convert... Just sit back for the show and know...

Its all your fault...

>=P

As for me, I'll try but I can assure you I DEFINITELY WILL NEVER LIKE IT!!! And if I really cant stand it, I'll try and get my parents to send me to my auntie's at singapore...

Fuck you govt for making my life hell
Not satisfied that you make me go through exams isit??

Oh yea...
There'll be lots of new faces...

like...

=P
=C
>=C
>=P
<=C
>=S

They dont look happy...

I suggest you duck and cover... XD

.: Happy as a lark :.

2009-07-06T04:19:00.000-07:00

Okay yeah... I know I need to update... > <
No need to tell me, I know...
BLAME MY SISTER!! SHE KEEPS HOGGING THE COMP!!

My eye infection no more ade.. Yay!!
Now I can blink all I want and it wont hurt!

Why does so many ppl in my class want to change school?!
Hel-looo ppl!! The 2nd semester has started already!! Even if you're accepted, they'll probably let you into the school at the start of next year!!
And if you're changing school just because of the teachers and stuff...
Well, I have something to tell you...
BY NEXT YEAR, IT'LL BE A BUNCH OF NEW TEACHERS!!!

Besides, if you go to a new school [better one] it'll be the same...
Some teachers you wont like...
Some teachers you will like...
Some students you hate...

And, you'd have to make new friends and stuff...

Okay... Okay..
CHANGE TOPIC!!

Sims 3 is
O. U. T.
OUT!

And I want it!!!
Wakakakakakaka!!
I hardly touch my Wii now... pity...
No time la!!

Things to do:-
-Seni folio
-Sejarah project
-Geo project
-Homework

Wa lao eh! Can diee...
XP

Cik Norizah [Blinky teacher] Change our places..
Well, mine didnt change but Sabrina's did.. Now Amirah is sittin next to me...
Well, I dont exactly hate her but she's really not social...
So if Nina wasnt sitting next to me, I would be dead bored!!
Good thing is, she hardly comes to school so the place next to me should be emoty most of the times..
She doesnt come when there's english..
Cant blame her.. But Ms Boey aint that bad...

Watched Transformer 2!
So totally AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My sis cried when Optimus Prime died...
I was like "pffffft" for like 2 seconds...
At the end of the show, she kept repeating the same thing:
"I WATCHED HIS BLUE EYES FLICKER OFF!! ITS SO SAD!!!"
"OPTIMUS PRIME DIED!!!"
"HE DDDDIIIIIIEEEDDDD!!!!"
"Waaaahaaaahaaaa... I watched him died and it was so sad..."

She even put on her facebook so go look!!
Wakakakakakaka!!

The cinema at Selayang Capitol STUNK!! I think a whole group of ppl forgot to wear deoderant... XD

K... gtg...

.: Ouch :.

2009-06-26T06:49:00.000-07:00

My bottom eye lid got infection... > <
Thats why I din come to school today...
I dun wanna go tuition tomorrow but NOOOO.... ><
Yeerrr... No fair la...

I blink a bit pain... When apply cream my eye like 0<
Lmao...
I slept A LOT today... Nicee....
So bored...

Oh yea, I caught my grandmother RED HANDED today..
I caught her going into my sis's room...
She left the door WIDE OPEN so thats why my sis got lots of mosquito bites!
Wakakakaka...
I was sleeping n she woke me up...
Her ring hitting the metal railing so loud!!

*ting*
*ting*
*ting*
*ting*

It woke me up... ><

Facebook is MUCH MUCH more fun thn myspace... Games n stuf... ^^

.: Great :.

2009-06-24T02:53:00.001-07:00

My problems are solved! Well, almost all of them... =P
There was a little misunderstanding between me and Fifi...
I am estatic to have that finally out in the open!!! =D

Hey ppl! Dragons EXIST!!!
SERIOUS!!!! I saw some docu. on National Geo. Channel!!
I have FACEBOOOK!! Woots~!

Cant blog much! I love de band sir! If it wasnt for him, we would've marched!! Instead, we play instrument!! <33

Gosh, I just hate highschool... SO much pressure leh... From teachers, friends, seniours... > <
I wanna go bac time!! Go bac to thn 6... SO DAMN FUN!!

.: Lawls :.

2009-06-22T05:43:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl... I'm back...
Nothing to post really...
Just a few stuff here and there...

Tomorrow, me, Poh2 and melissa gonna go for the minggu koperasi thingy!
Samantha ask... I hope not like the perpustakaan one la cos hor, run until I like wanna die de!!

I got number1 in class.

Summore I got music class after that! 4.15 until 5.45!!
But at least I'm asking teacher to teach me Tidus and Yuna's Theme.
Search it on youtube! Its AWESOME!!!!!!
Cant wait to learn!!
Today at band, I watched Choo Yee play de clarinet. So damn fast la her fingers!! Summore she blow so long and so loud! Like no need to breathe liddat!!
Winter is AWESOME!!
Abba Gold is also AWESOME!!

*Yes, I realise I use AWESOME!! a lot...

Wakakakaka...
I still want a mac book!!!

I'm just like, waiting for my birthday to come...

haih...
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Serious ppl!! Who reads my blog that is not a st marian??

Oh yea, st marians have a thing about getting pregnant and having kids and husbands! Its so... weird if you ask me...

.: Life is full of people. :.

2009-06-19T03:19:00.000-07:00

I dont know why but I fell asleep after coming home from school.
I fell asleep till like 5 something!! Can you believe it?

Something weird happen to me before balik time...
As usual, Afzal and Alynna will be looking at Fei Qian, I didnt say anything.
I looked up, they were looking at her friggin back! BIG WHOOP!!!
I looked back in front and after a while, Afzal was like hiding...
I looked back up, no wonder...
Fei Qian lookng at our class. I stared at her.. She stared at me...
I'm like "what? Why are you staring at me?"
Her face is.... BLANK... So lmao rite?
I looked away and went home... WOOTS!!! HOME!!!

Tomorrow jogathon and tuition...
*sigh* tuition.... > <
I might have to go in my PJ attire... =P
I'll stink up the whole class... haha!!
LMAO.

Myspace very slow la...
Thats why I dun really like myspace... Haih.. Wat to do?

Oh yea, you know, I think only st marians read this blog... =P
If anyone reading this is NOT a stmarian, TAG ME LA PLSSS!! LET ME KNOW MY BLOG AINT THAT DEAD!!!

Today, me, Gaya and Adlyn doing Flames with people's name...
Gaya got marridge with Eh hem! Eh hem! haha!
Adlyn got love with -you know who-...
So today was quite fun...

Anyway, I cant think of anything crucial to post...

Here's a TAG!!

Tagged by Gaya Low.

1) What was your worst childhood experience
Realising I had no baby pictures? Does that count? XD
2) You're a fan of......
Apple! and apples... de company and de fruit.
3) What music are you listening to right now?
New divide - Linkin Park... (IT ROCKS!!)
4) When was the last time you cried? Why?
Just now... So many ppl are moving!! All my friends... ><
5) How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
One word... eurgh...
6) What will you do if you see a really horrifying ghost beside you?
Scream and run... If he doesnt disappear and he doesnt do anything to me, I will say hello!
7) Your best friend and your friend is about to fall off a building and they are far apart from each other. You only have time to save one of them, who will you save?
My best friend?
8) What was the last thing you dreamt?
I dont remember
9) List out your 5 favorite words
friggin, damn, lmao, shut up, so what...
10) Type a random sentence
I like chocolate

I tag...
-Firzana
-Melissa
-Jaice
-Michelle Chong
-Michelle Ling
-Adlyn
- Anyone who wanna do this...

.: Hows Life? :.

2009-06-17T01:31:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl...
Hows the story I wrote?
Yea, I know its sad... If it isnt to you, well, I dunno...
To me its sad.

Since school start cant post that much... > <

Exam result okay okay gua...
I tell you when I know ALL!!
Huahuahua!!
I just came home from band la ppl, I rest first ar...
Later if got time, i post again.

P.S I'm writing another story...
kekekeke...

.: Chapter 4 :.

2009-06-17T01:22:00.000-07:00

Chapter 4

I looked into his eyes. He looked into mine. We sat there like that for a few minutes until I decided that the silence was too awkward. I looked away and towards the window. Sunlight shining through.

“There’s isn’t much to do here. You can go home if you want. I don’t mind.” I offered. Seriously, have you ever been trapped in a hospital ward with practically anyone at all? It’s very, very excruciatingly boring. I should know.
“Nah… I feel sort of responsible that you got hurt.” I frowned.
“Its not your fault.” His expression solemn.
“It is… If I just-“
“Wane…” Rage pulsed through my veins as I tried to calm myself down. I breathe deeper.
“If I just stopped for a while, this would never have-“
“SHUT UP! SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP! I SAID ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! I NEVER SAID IT WAS YOUR FAULT! SO JUST SHUT UP!!!” I screamed. It felt good.
He stood there staring at me wide eyed as tears rolled down my cheek. This is so embarrassing. I lied down with a thump and covered my face with the blanket.

-Creak- -Creak-

I could hear the sound of the chair being pushed to my bedside.

-Thump + creak-

As he sat down, the chair creaked under his weight. I could hear him sighing.
“Eve? I’m sorry”
I kept quiet.
“Eve, I’m really sorry.”
“How sorry are you?”
“Very! I’ll do anything if you just forgive me.”
“Answer my question honestly and I’ll forgive you.”
He hesitated a bit. “Okay.”
“Do you still love Rose?”
“A micro bit.”
Stab. Stab. Blood. Ouch. Those words pierced my heart.
“So you lied when you said you didn’t like Rose anymore.”
He kept quiet.
“You were asking me what I said right? I said ‘I can’t believe I actually liked you’ ” I heard him gasp as he realized all the pain he caused me.
“I’m so sorry, Eve.”
“Nah… It’s okay. Do me another favor?”
“Anything.”
”Pretend all the things that have happened before never happened at all. Let’s start over.” I pulled back the blanket and sat up. He looked deep into my puffy eyes and smiled.
“Okay…”
“Hi, I’m Eve.”
“Hi, I’m Wane.”

The hospital had a sort of garden or a small park where patients could walk around. The doctor suggested that I ‘stretched my muscles’, so we went down there for a stroll. We talked and walked, walked and talked. He laughed his big hearty laugh and smiled his glowing smile that touched his eyes. I’ve never seen him that happy before. I’ll admit it. I still like him. But he loves Rose even if it’s only a micro-bit.

Evening soon came.
“Hey, I just remembered something. I brought my iPod. Want to listen to some music?”
“Sure.” I smiled at his friendly gesture. I took the cherry red iPod and plugged my ears. Music filled my soul. I turned up the volume. I couldn’t hear anything else. It was like being in my very own concert.
We continued our stroll around the garden. I breathe in the fresh air. I realized he was fidgeting a lot. I ignored it and continued on. He stopped me for a while and said something. I frowned. All I heard was music; I couldn’t hear what he was saying.
“What?”
Suddenly, he whipped his head back. His expression turned into panic and fear. I saw his lips move. As I took the earphones off, I heard a scream.
“GET HIM!!”
“Get out of my way, girlie!”
I turned around.

-Bang- -Bang-

Two shots fired.
Funny, I could actually feel the bullet pierce through my skin and hit my bone. I put my hand to my shoulder, dropping the iPod on the grass. Blood, lots of it, like apples, cherries… and his iPod. The pain rippled through me as the other bullet broke my rib and tore through the tissue and muscle of my heart. I gasped in pain as my whole body shut down. I could feel the warmth of my face drain away as every drop of blood flowed out, leaving my organs to die. I collapsed. My legs becoming numb as the nerve cells died one by one. “EVE!!” Wane rushed to my side, catching my limp body before it fell. My nose brushed lightly on a blade of grass, inches away from the ground. His hand pulled my face, forcing me to look at him.
“It’s going to be okay. You’re going to be all right” He gasped every word. His eyes wide with worry.
“Someone HELP!!!” I fainted or died, I really don’t know. The rusty smell of blood, still lingering in the air.
All I saw was…

DARKNESS…

“Eve!”
“Eve!”
“Eve!”
“No!”

The next thing I knew, I was standing in the corner or my hospital room. It was empty except for Wane. He was sitting on the bed sobbing. I slowly walked towards him.
“Why are you crying?” I asked. Not looking up, he answered.
“A girl I really cared about, who forgave me again and again for all the pain I’ve caused her, is DEAD!! Some drug addict shot her! She was just recovering from… How could-“ He broke off, sobbing more than ever. I’ve never seen him so sad. He must’ve really loved her.
“Its okay, Wane” That was all I could do. Comfort him. I couldn’t bring her back for him even if I tried. I sat down next to him as he wiped away his tears and looked up. He looked so sad, I wanted to kiss him, make him forget about her. His eyes widened as he realized it was I. He quickly got up from the bed, red puffy eyes staring straight into my muddy brown eyes.
“You- you’re alive! No! You can’t be! I saw you…yo- you were… bleeding!” I frowned.
“Wane, are you okay? What are you talking about?”
“You were shot! The- the drug addict shot you! In your left shoulder and in-in you- your heart!”
“No…” My hand flew to my left shoulder. True enough, there was a hole there. No blood.
“You know I love you right? -Sob- I love you, Eve.” I shook my head slowly.
“You love Rose.”
“I did until I realized all you’ve done for me. All the pain I caused you. And your willingness to forgive me over and over again.”
“I –“ His lips met mine as his hands coiled themselves around my hands, gripping them tightly.
“Wane…” I muttered when he finally pulled away. I looked at my hands, also gripping his hands as tightly as he did mine.
“I love you too.” As I said those four little words, my hands started to fade away. I was fading away.
I heard him shout as he realized what was going to happen.
“NO! DON’T GO! PLEASE!” He fell on his knees, tears spurting from his red, swollen eyes.
“I’m sorry.” I kneeled down with him and held his face to look me in the eye. I smiled, tears rolling down my cheek. I kissed his forehead and said those four words that caused him so much joy and pain at the same time.
“I love you too.”

THE END

.: Chapter 3:.

2009-06-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

Chapter 3

Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep

Am I dead? My eyes fluttered open. As my eyes adjusted to its new surroundings, I realised I was staring at a white ceiling. Where am I? I dont know this place. I pushed myself up and looked around. I saw a nurse through the small gap at the door. Hospital? Just then I saw something move.
Oh... Him...

Wane was there. Sleeping on the chair that was apparently pushed to the side of my bed. I reached out.
"Wane?" Slowly, I shook him. He felt so warm. He jerked upright at my touch. I looked into his eyes.
"What am I doing here? What are you doing here? What happened to me?" I asked. I needed an answer. Could you blame me? Imagine waking up in a hospital! His eyes widened.
"You're awake! Gawd, I was so worried!" He jumped up and hugged me so tightly I could hardly breathe. I blushed.
"Wane... Cant... Breathe..."
"Oh! Sorry! Are you ok?" I coughed a bit.
"Yea, what happened?" I asked again. His expression darkened
"You dont remember?"
"No, why am I here? Why are YOU here?"
"You really dont remember at all?"
"No..."
"Oh shit... Oh shit..." He paced back and forth like a caged tiger.
"Hey... Just tell me! What happened?" I grabbed his hand, stopping him.
"You fell down 2 flight of stairs." His eyes stared at the floor, filled with guilt.
"Wow... How did I fall?"
He sighs and sits down. He held my hand as he tells me everything.

"I wanted to tell you that Rose rejected me... At first I was sad but then I started to realise that I never like liked her. I call you and Rose a lot so my grades sorta slipped and my parents took my phone away. They only gave it back to me on the weekends." He stared into my eyes waiting for my response.
"Oh..." I understood why now. It all came back to me.
I was waiting for him so that I could talk to him.
I took step after step backwards.
I didnt look where I was going.
I fell down.

My hand felt to back of my head. It was bandaged. According to him, my nose was bleeding after I fell. I took a piece of tissue and wiped my nose. He was right. Small bits and pieces of dried blood was there.
"How long was I asleep?"
"Erm, a day?"
The door opened. My parents came in.
"Hi mom. Dad." I smiled.
"Oh sweetie! You're awake! We were so worried! Do you remember what happened?" They rushed in and hugged me.
"Nope! but Wane reminded me what happened."
"Honey..." She leaned closer to me and whispered.
"Did he push you?"
"MOM! No..."

"Hello everybody.. Ah, I see that your awake." The doctor barged in. Ever heard of knocking?
"My name is Doctor Arsehool. How are you feeling?"
"*pfft* I'm *giggle* feeling fine."
"Ah.. Ok.. Let me know if you feel sick." He walked out the door and I burst out laughing.

"Did you hear that? His name sounds like Arse Hole!! Haha!!" Wane burst out laughing too..
My parents just smiled.
"Well sweetie, we have to go now. We still have work. Wane? Can you accompany her? I'll let your parents know."
"Sure..." He smiled.
The thought of him staying here for another 8 hours made my heart beat so much faster.

Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep

Damn that stupid machine! I could feel my face turn red hot as the blood rushed to my cheeks. He looked at me and that goddamn machine and smile a big smile that touched his eyes.
"Since you remember, could you please tell me?" He asked, eyes pleading.
"I'll think about it" He laughed. I couldnt help but smile along.

.: Haiz... Haiz.... :.

2009-06-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl, I know... Long time no post...
My fault really...
Me la, go and invite so many ppl come my house so many days...
kekeke...
But... fun wat...

De truth or dare was de BEST!!
haha!
Then yesterday I chatted with Andy...
Ling............
kakakaka...

OH YEA!!!
BIG NEWS PPL!!
LING DOES NOT LIKE DE GAY DAVID ARCHULETA ANYMORE!!
She likes de BOF fella [Hypocrite]
kakakaka...

I'm in a really good mood today cause...
Today got band and I played the clarinet!! WOOTS!!!!!!!!!
I didnt march that much...
Ur probably wondering how can rite?
Well, I vomitted... haha!
In de sink ok... not on the floor...

Tu lah... eat too much de... lmao...

Yesterday, me,ling and Melissa watch BOF..
On... Melissa's MACBOOK!!!!
I WAN A MAC BOOK!!!!
YERRRRRR...... ><
so fast u know... de internet speed...

I'm like, so friggin jealous.... ><
Yes... Friggin is my new word... XD
Oh yea, did you know that Sims 3 is out??
I want... Gosh... I want a lot of stuff eh?
kekeke....

Yea Melissa, I'll post chapter 3 ASAP>..

.: Damn it! :.

2009-06-01T19:31:00.000-07:00

Damn it! I'm so freggin mad!!
Its not FAIIR!!!!
My parents dont let me go selayang mall with Nureen, Nad, Nik, Farah, Fir...
URGH!!! They say stuff like...
"What if your friends especially the malays bring guys there... "
Can you believe it?? My parents are like friggin racists!!
Damn it!! I guess I'll just rot at home then...
They also said..
"So basically you going to lepak there la... hmm.."
I was like WTH?? They let me go to Prima Kepong and othr places before...
How come suddenly Selayang mall has a big fat NO there???
Dont make sense at all!!!! It aint friggin fair!!!
And then.. Adlyn's b'day party also I cannot go...
Why? I have to balik kampung and see my stupid grandmother...
I live with one and I'm sick of it!!!
I would really like a place where there isnt any old people at all!! [irritating ones]

I live with a ke-po, like-to-blame-stupid-things-for-things-she-did, naggy grandmother!!!
Goddamnit! Havent I suffered enough???!!
Plus, when I balik kampung, there's no friggin computer there! no internet!! How am I supposed to blog???!!!

Again...
I CANT FRIGGIN WAIT TO DRIVE AND LIVE IN MY OWN HOUSE/APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANT WAIT FOR THAT!!!!!!!!!!!
Then I dont need to ask them for permission at all!!

I am really agravated..
pissed off...

.: Chapter 2 :.

2009-05-29T08:32:00.000-07:00

Chapter 2
That weekend, I reluctantly went to tuition. I was late. I was begging my parents to let me skip tuition. No such luck. Again, I was stuck behind him. I didn’t even look at him once that day. I was busy thinking, “Should I tell him about Rose?” Sally looked at me.
“What’s wrong? You look really sad…” I looked at her and everyone else in the room. They were whispering and glancing at me. I smiled the friendliest smile I could manage.
“Well…” I told her EVERYTHING. Rose. Wane. Bree. Everything.

After 3 excruciating hours, I was finally allowed to go. Still, I hesitated. I watched everyone get up and leave until it was only me, Sally, him, and his friends. I got up. Plugged my ears with music at full blast and walked out. As I pulled on the door, I glanced at Sally. She was talking to him.

I saw their mouths move. I just went out the door. I can’t stand it. I can’t like him because Rose likes him. ARGH!

That night, I tossed and turned in bed. I absolutely couldn’t sleep. I read my books but I still couldn’t sleep. Staring at the ceiling, I felt my pillow vibrate. It was just my phone. I lazily reached for it. “Who’s this??” I asked myself. On the screen it showed an unknown number. I picked up anyway.
“Hello? Who’s this?”
“Hi. Er.. Is this Eve?” Who the hell is this??
“Yea… Who’s this??”
“Erm… I don’t know if you know who I am.. I’m Wane, Wane Hagen. You sat behind me a few times before… like today…” I gasped.
“How did you get my number?”
“Your friend, Sally.”
“Okay… remind me to kill her later..”
He laughed. He texted and called me like once a week. I really couldn’t complain. One day, he asked about Rose.
“I overheard you the other day.”He said.
“Do you want her number?”
“Yea… Sure…”

A few weeks later, he called less often. I got frustrated with him. I texted him but he didn’t text back. I called him but he didn’t call back.
One day, I decided to ask him why. Just out of curiousity.

Finally, the weekend came. I waited and waited for a chance to talk to him away from prying ears. Half an hour before the end of tuition, he got up and went to the toilet. I waited 3 minutes and went after him. I stood there in front of the door, waiting.
*flush* *click*
The door swung open.
“Oh, hey..” he smiled and headed off to class. I pulled his arm.
“Wait, I need to talk to you.”
He hesitated. “O-okay… What’s up?”
“Why don’t you answer my calls?”
“I’ve… er… Been busy.”
“Oh… Okay…” I loosened my grip. A brief image crossed my mind. Him. Rose. Walking hand in hand. My eyes widened. I gripped him arm tighter.
“Ow..”
“Did you use me to get to Rose?!” Silence.
“Tell me honestly.. Now..” His face darkened. His smile faded into a thin line.
“Tell me, please!” I begged him. I have to know. My eyes, slightly moist with tears, looked deep into his eyes. All the while tugging at his arm.
“Yea… Sort of… But-“
“I hate you! I cant believe I actually like you!” Tears streamed down my face.
“Wait! What-?” He grabbed my shoulders when I tried to run. I tried to push him off but to no prevail. He was stronger than me. I stopped trying and glared at him. I shouldn’t have said anything! I should’ve let it be!
“You heard me… I hate you! Now let me go!” I squirmed.
“The other one… Please?” He looked at me with pleading eyes. He looked so… cute. Rage enveloped me. “He just manipulated you! How can you still say he’s cute??!” My mind screamed.

I kept my mouth shut and my eyes closed. His grip loosened.
“At first yeah… I did… I liked Rose. I even asked her to be my girlfriend… Then-“
It hurts too much. The ache in my heart got worse. It throbbed with pain! I covered my ears with my hands, just hoping this was a dream. In the darkness I could hear him. I opened my eyes and ran to the door to the stairs.
“Eve!” He managed to grab me again. I shut my eyes tight. I could feel his breath on my hands, desperate to tell me something. I step back.
“Eve!” I step back. I could feel his hands shaking my wrists, trying to pull my hands off my ears. I step back.
“Eve!“ This time his voice had a bit of panic in it. I step back.
Then, I felt myself falling. I opened my eyes just to see it fade again.
*thump* “Eve!!! Someone help!”
Darkness.

.: Nureen's Farewell :.

2009-05-29T05:38:00.000-07:00

Nureen is leaving! I'm really sad..
I cried yesterday and yesterday night and when I got home today..
I took lots of pics too..
We went to SM..
Really fun!!
I didnt get to finish bowling..
I was so paranoid that my mum would be there waiting and see me getting off the taxi!
Me and Afzal left at 3.30...
Shouldve stayed longer..

I know I should've told my mum but I know that if I tell, she wont even let me stay back..
What a great farewell that would be huh?

Anyway, Teacher's Day really ROCKED!!!
It was WAAYY better than the one at St Mary [old school]
I really laughed REALLLYY HARD!!
The teachers were really funny during the fashion show.. [Except GORILLA]
Miss Yong and Cik Fairos look so preetyy!!!!!!!
2 best performances was done by 5sc1 and band of course!!
I have to say... AWESOME PPL!!!

I brought the camera only to find out that today cannot make the pass...
My sister la... hish..
dunno what to blog la...

My sis fren all comin to watch "The UNBORN!!" at night..
haizz...
screaming...
shouting...
haiz..

Yesterday, I learned "the tortoise" and "the chair" at hip hop class...
Those are breakdancing moves...

HAPPIE!!!
but...

SAD>>>>
NUREEN IS GOING>>>
BOO HOO:???

.: Chapter 1:.

2009-05-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

Drumroll please!!
Presenting, the story I've been writing.. hehe
This is only chapter one! there's many more!

Chapter 1

“Shit! I’m late!” I rushed in the door and went to class. I looked around. You know how when you go for tuition and the class is like divided into two groups of girls and guys. Unfortunately for me, the girls’ side was full. I walked past the girls and sat beside Sally, my closest and not irritating friend in tuition. Apparently, she came late but obviously earlier than me. I didn’t notice till now, he was sitting in front of me.
The minute passed by as I tried and tried to concentrate. I just couldn’t! He was right in front of me! I couldn’t stop thinking about him! Argh! Weird thing was, sometimes, I could feel his gaze upon me. Then I would smile. Every now and then, I couldn’t help but a short glance at him.Looking at his face.
His smile. His eyes. Hearing his voice and his hearty laugh made my heart beat faster.
That’s how it was every single week.
…
…
Except this week. I came late again, so did Sally. We sat behind them. As the History teacher was blabbering away, I glanced at him. Surprisingly, he decided to glance at me at the exact moment. Our eyes met.. and I just.. stared at him. He looked away. I wouldve slapped myself if it wasn’t for the fact that he was there. Should’ve smiled. Damn! And now, every night before I sleep, I would think about what his reaction would be if I smiled.
Great, now I’m talking nonsense! A smile cant changed anything! I really slapped myself as I sat on the bed. Gotta get some sleep, I had school tomorrow. Urgh!
Next morning, I dragged myself out of bed and actually made it to school.
“Eve! Hey Eve!” I turned around.
“Oh, hey Bree.”
“Gosh, you look like a zombie!” I scowled.
“thanks so much”
We walked and talked and walked and talked. we met up with the whole family of 10. More talking. It’s the way girls are. As we talked, we stumbled on the one question we never asked before.
“heyy.. I just thought of something! Any of you realise that Rose never “likes “ anyone?” Alice’s question caused ooh-s and aaahh-s. From everyone.I could see her blush a little. Suddenly Bree shouted,
“Oooo… I know who, must be Wane right?” Bree teased in her sing-song voice. Her jaw dropped, laughter followed.
Somehow, that name seems familiar.
“how did she meet him?”
“I dunno really.”
“I don’t like him anymore!” Rose shouted as Bree spilled out information about him.
My expression hardened. I frowned.
“Wait a minute.. Is his full name Wane Hagen?”
“Yeah! You know him?”
“Not really.. He goes to my tuition center now.”
According to Bree, she used to like him.[As if I’ll believe that] And he used to like her.
“Hey Rose! Want me to pass him a love letter?” I teased. Ouch. It actually hurt.

.: Exam Week :.

2009-05-25T05:52:00.000-07:00

Hey hey ppl. Wassup?
I'm not sick.. Its exam week.. Life is GREAT! AND BAD>>
Haiyo... Tomorrow geo... ><
Dad reformat de whole com..
I got myspace!!
Add okay?

whatthehell9609@yahoo.com

I've been writing this teenage romance heartbreak story..
Exam la.. So damn bored! So nothing to do I write la.. Test pad rite there!
I think I'm gonna post chapter by chapter in de myspace blog..
I'll let you know when de first chapter is actually up.
Only Adlyn has read it.
No need to get jealous.. haha! jk jk..

Kris Allen won American Idol..
I think the judges are really unfair..
I'm happy that Kris won but have you realised that all de winners are good looking only?
I think the judges are racist too.
Only like, white ppl win!
Never hav I seen an african american win..
Anyway, I've decided not to support American Idol anymore..

The school/class will be full of ppl divided into 2 groups. TERRIBLE!

Gosh... I hate Geo n Sej... > <

P.S
I WANT A LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AARRGGH!!
EVERYONE HAS ONE EXCEPT MEEEE....
*sob* *sob*
*cry* *cry*

.: Sniff sniff :.

2009-05-17T00:10:00.001-07:00

I think I'm sick..

I hope its not the H1N1 virus!! > <

First symptom I have : Sneezing and runny nose

Second symptom : Fever and slight headache and aching body..

Tell me if I have it or not... Please!! Feeling better after I ate some medicine..

Now, its back...

I DUN WANNA DIEE!!! [I think] XD

Well, I wont have to sit for the exam... =D

But I'll miss my friends... > <

I hope its not anyway.. but it got me thinking..

Who will be sad if I die?

Who will be happy that I die?

Who will cry?

Who will smile?

P.S

Do you hate me or forgotten me? I cant tell..

All I know, you found a NEW BFF and its not me..

I hate her but you dont know that..

You've changed.. I dunno if I have..

You've replaced me..

Remember what you said to me on my birthday?

Is that promise still there or was it just to make me happy?

You talk to me but your mind is wandering elsewhere..

I'm crying just thinking about this..

You've hurt me and I feel like you've betrayed me..

But I cant get myself to hate you...

Cause you used to be my "family" when my real one didnt care...

I dunno what to think...

Life is complicated..

.: Anothe week gone :.

2009-05-15T19:34:00.000-07:00

You know, I'm starting to realise how fast time is..

Isnt it wonderful?

Time I spend in school will be like so fast! No need to deal with all the sibuk-sibuk teachers!!

Today is saturday and I have to go tuition... TT.TT

3 whole hours of Sejarah, Geo and Science... Its because of sejarah... > <

Stewppid teacher! I can sleep in ur class la!!

I hate and like Form 1... I wanna go back to standard 6!!!!!!!!

I rather sit for upsr again than deal with the horrible teachers of Form 1..

Still, Form 1 is quite fun...

Haiya nvm la!!

Nothing much to say cos life is mostly homework... sleep... homework... sleep... eat... homework... sleep... TV... homework... homework... HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going insane with the amount of homework..

Yesterday, my "smart" english teacher said our scholastic books havent arrive...

Cik Murni said she saw the box there (office) already...

She ask Nina to go and check...

Nina saw the box... 2 big box there in the office!!

Either she's blind or she mentally disable!!

Cleaning time, Nina n Hasish (Harish) go see our "Intelligent" english teacher...

Then when they came back, we FINALLY got our books..

Hey Teacher, If you didnt check can just say rite??!!!! No need to pandai2 say havent come yet and make us wait another week maybe for our books!! Just admit it you B****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!

this morning, I heard my idiotic grandmother say something like " I go... room.... many times... dirty... clean..."

Sorry la! I "banana" rite! She speaking in chinese la! I was like so angry I wanted to shout from my room, "You need to go my room for what??!! Busy body!! Not ur room rite??!! If not my room then u go whose room huh??!! Mummy already told you NOT to come upstairs rite?? Nobody at home you want come upstairs to do what?? Clean my room? My sister's room? No need!! You stay downstairs enough!! If you never went into my room in the first place I would've never HATED you... But you did so I. Hate. YOU!!!! BLUEEKKK!!!"

Oh how I wish I could say it....

.: Survey?? :.

2009-05-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

Fir Tagged Me.... I think...

SURVEY

Once you are tagged,
Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.

Starting time: 8:45 pm
Name: Rebecca Kong Yee Rong AKA Kyro/Kiro =D
Sisters: Rachel Kong Yee Rou
Brothers: None... =C
Eye Color: Dark Brown [I checked!]
Shoe size: 6/5
Hair: Black
Piercings: Ear only
Height: I dun remember

What are you wearing right now? Baggy T-shirt and shorts
Where do you live? Taman Selayang Baru
Favourite number: 3
Favourite drink: Cincau
Favourite month: September
Favourite day: Friday
Favourite breakfast: Bread with kaya

Have You Ever

Broken a bone: Nay
Been in a police car: Nay
Been on a plane: Yea..
Been in a hot tub: Yea.. Once.. XD
Swam in the ocean: Not exactly swim... more like waddle? paddling?
Fallen asleep in school: Yea.. its normal
Broken someone’s heart: No..
Cried when someone died?: I THINK I did...when my grandaunty passed away.. =c
Fell off your chair: Of course!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: twice?
Saved e-mails: Yea
Been cheated on: No... Ive never had a boyfriend... =C

What Is

Your room like? Green n messsy
What is right beside you? Camera
What is the last thing you ate? Banana

Ever Had

Chicken pox: I think so... I dun remember much...
Sore throat: Yea... Like duh!!
Stitches: No...
Broken nose: Nay

Do Youokay

Believe in love at first sight? Yes... No... I dunno... Ahhh... Yes then..
Like picnics: Yup
Wear contact lenses or glasses? Yea... I wear glasses... I HATE THEM!! I want contact lenses!!!!!!!

Who

Who was the last person you danced with? my sis?
Who last made you smile? My sis..
Who did you last yell at? Cant remember... I think it was de class...

Random Questions

What are you listening to right now? the whirring of a computer..
What did you do today? Study.. Gossip... Think abt y tat person not talking to me much...=X
Hate someone in your family? YES!!
Diamond or pearl? Diamond...
Are you the oldest? No... > <
Indoors or outdoors? both!

Today did you

Talk to someone you like? Yes.... my friends
Kiss anyone? Nooo
Get sick? Nooo
Sing? Yes... A lot actually... =D
Talk to an ex? I dont hav an ex...
Miss someone of the opposite sex? yea... =X
Eat? DUH!

Last person who

You talked to on the phone? Mummy..
Made you cry? My best friend
Went to the movies with? Family...
You went to the mall with? Family... -.-
Texted you? Melanie..

Have you

Been to Mexico? No
Been to USA? Yea... ^^

Final Questions

Have a crush on someone? Yea but de person doesnt like me... =C
What books are you reading right now? -
Best feeling in the world? Happiness... Love <3
Future kids names? Alice - girl boy... havent think yet...

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes... My teddy [polar bear bought in australia]
What’s under your bed? Dust...
Favorite sport(s) to watch? I dun watch sports... makes no sense...
Favorite place: my room
Who do you really hate? Several ppl...
Do you have a job? Nay...
What time is it now? 9:07pm

Congratulations you have come to end of the quiz,
Tag 10 people now.

1. Melissa Chan
2. Michelle Chong
3. Ling..
4. Jaice
5. Rachel
6. Natsumi
7. Jocelyn
8. anyone that wants to do this. =)
9. anyone that wants to do this. =)
10. anyone that wants to do this. =)

.: Damn U Streamyx! :.

2009-05-13T04:16:00.000-07:00

Yea, I know.. I hardly ever update my blog... Its not my fault really! Its de slow internet and my sister tat hogs de com..

Okayy ppl... Add me if u want...

rkyr_coolbabe@hotmail.com

No laughing!! <<>

HEER FAULT!!!

Side step very fun leh!! Today Samantha sudd call me, siva, a form 3 girl and Teh to "show" de others how to "do it properly"... *toing*??

Haiya... susah la... If I gossip, I lazy to type... If I dun gossip, I got nothing to write...

sorry ar, everyone... Gomenasai, minnasama!

I shall strive for more bloggertivity... haha!!!!

LAme!! *slap*

Okay, okay... I'm going insane...

.: cough cough ouch.. :.

2009-04-24T19:32:00.000-07:00

I'm coughing... and it HURTS!!!!

Especially this morning when I just woke up..

Mummy... I dont wanna go to tuition today... ><

I'm really bored recently.. especially at home..

So, dont be surprised if I suddenly sms u...

haha! I hate tuition!!

I dont ever wanna go...

Yesterday me n Adlinur stay back to do some research for the magazine...

Couldnt find Fir, Aryana had cheer so it was only 2 of us...

We were at the CC until 3 then we walked around the school with Melanie, Mallizza and another girl who is older than us all..

I know last time me and Mel used to fight a lot but u know, we have something in common...

I wont say what la...

bocor la rahsia... mana bes lagi... XD

Tag la ppl!!! Dont make my blog any dead-er!!

I got nothing to say lo...

need to eat medicine...

BYEEE

.: I'm sick! :.

2009-04-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Boo hoo ppl... I'm sick... > <

For once I had to SKIP SCHOOL... [for form 1 anyway]

I hope this doesnt affect me getting the giraffe...

I'm really mad with myself for getting sick cause...

Yesterday night I susah2 practice marching in front of my mirror...

I mark de thing n stuff but I had to miss band practice...

Waaaaa...

How was school??

Class??

What homework?

Really got ceramah??

What happened in band??

What did I miss?

Was everyone bored? [I know.. Perasan rite? ]

Tell me... I NEED TO KNOW!!!

Who knows, maybe Miss Boey ask to write another essay about that ceramah??

Woi ppl... U need to TAG me.. TAG!! TAG!!!

Yesterday, I was already sneezing uncontrollably... [Dont believe me? Ask my class]

Yesterday night, I couldnt sleep because I couldnt breathe through my stewpiid nose!!

I had to breathe through my mouth and tat made my throat dry!! So I was like waking up every 2 or 1 hours because I had to drink water!!

I woke up at 3 am, 4 am, and 5 am..

I only realised I had a fever when I woke up at 5..

Tak cukup tido u know!!

I woke up at 9 later... feeling much much better cos I took a panadol..

Ate my breakfast [milo and bread] but forgot my pills... =P

Den, had to wait till 2 for my lunch...

In tat 4 hours, I watched heroes till de END!!

I hate Nathan, Sylar, Angela, Arthur and _______ Strauss... I dun remember her full name!

Someone sms me.. I'm bored..

.: DAmn you blogger!! :.

2009-04-09T19:22:00.000-07:00

.: Stupid school :.

2009-04-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

7/4/2009

I really dun wanna come to school tomorrow cause all the form 1 have to go to this ceramah for the whole day...

Gaah!! I'm gonna be so damn bored!

Today quite little homework so got time to blog.. Did you know...

MY WHOLE BLUE FILE IS LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOST MY BABY!!!!!!!!

SOMEONE STOLE MY BABIIEEEE!!!!!!!!!

F*** YOU, WHOEVER YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO TO HELLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!

IDIOT!!

O-kay... I woke up today with like, 5 mosquito bites on my arms!

Thankfully, it wasnt that itchy..

Seriously ppl, do I look like a guy when I wear slightly baggy jeans??

My USB cable something wrong...

I got my first offence slip yesterday!! WOOTS!! And... its YELLOW!!

Today was... quiet... Unusually quiet...

Gaya> come la tomorrow!~ I'll be so damn bored leh... PITY ME!!

Do u wanna read the "follow ur heart... etc" book? I'll bring tomorrow....

My Inkheart book is DAMAGED!! by.....

me... I hate myself! Bad Becca! *hits self*

I read 2 "dear dumb diary" books today. Thx Gaya!

So DAMN FUHNEEYY!!!!! I was laughing all de way!

I'm gonna buy de whole series!!

De whole class just found out that Cik Masreana (Sejarah teacher) is Amyla's cousin...

I was like, "WHAT??!!" Can you blame me? Amy's like a boy but Cik Mas is like a girl...

They have the same grandmother... Anyway, something really funny happened today...

Pn. Robiatul I think, tied Syafikah and Amy's fringe up and... It just looked so FUNNY!!

I laughed until my face was sore and my stomach aching... XD

Gaya was less talkative today...

.: Huh? :.

2009-04-01T05:45:00.000-07:00

Can someone tell me who de drum major, etc etc is?

I couldnt hear... hehehe!!

Today was tiring and I absolutely HATE de teacher who decided to invite this fella to giv ceramah bout de stupid dadah!!

I missed 2 periods of PJ!! We were suppose to learn FOOTBALL today! FOOTBALL!! I'm not a footie, its just that its de first sport we're gonna learn.. Duh, I'm excited..

This shall be my shortest post in history... HUAHUAHUA

.: Sadness :.

2009-03-27T18:20:00.000-07:00

Okay, I know I havent been online much...

I had to get back to being used to band...

Homework problem resolved! Dont tell my mum. She just think I quit in the first place cause of exhaustion. ^^"

I like Carrie Underwood's song "Jesus Take The Wheel" eventhough I'm not that much of a Christian.

On 25th of March, 2009... I screamed in my pillow and cried cause that was one of those "HORRIBLE" days when I felt like all happiness had been sucked out. First, I lost my best friend. Second, I was really scared to go to band cause Samantha and Cheah's sis looked very angry. I thought they were gonna start bullying me. [ I know lame ] Third, I hated going home. My grandmother is there, on the way back I would surely be the middle of a fight between my sis and my mum. Since they were shouting, when I get angry but I didnt shout, my mum would be like "Why are you shouting??!!". Yea, so I'm getting tired of that.

School isnt even my sanctuary anymore. Only my room where I have privacy and freedom.

25th and 26th was probably the worst days of my life. It was the time I made all the wrong decisions. To anyone who's been hurt within this whole week, I'm sorry.

It took me at least 2 more days to pull myself together. Hehe... I know I very lambat...

I thought it'll be cool to be the FIRST st. marian to commit suicide just for fun. haha! Today I sewel sikit.

YYEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!! Today got tuition.. > <>

P.S. Kar jie2... Pls dun use yellow... very hard to read... XD How u find my blog?

BAND QUIT!

2009-03-22T04:15:00.000-07:00

hey readers.
its Gaya Low here blogging for Kong.
she wants to blog about the current situation about whether should she stay in band or quit.
she have the answer already. and its with me.
she decided to QUIT band babeyh!
and she apologize to everyone who asked her to stay in band.
really really sorry!

.: Another Great Day :.

2009-03-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

As all u anime fans know...

Today is ACGC...

I had de choice of following my parents n my niece or my sister.

SURPRISINGLY, I chose to follow my parents n go swimming at tropicana.

I hear some of u saying "Why?". Haha! Well, cos I know I would feel left out. It happened at CF. Mun2 was there too...

Besides,its so puny! [ACGC] It was at Tropicana City. Nothing much there y'know..

De only thing I bought was de monkey keychain which was SO KYUUTE!!!

Gosh... Something is wrong with me...

Yesterday, we went to Selayang Mall. So I went to Living Cabin to get Mei Yeens burfday present... LOADS of kyute stuff there so I was like "OMG! TAT'S SO CUUTEEE!!!!!!"

ANYONE GOT CURE FOR ADDICTION TO CUTE STUFF?????!!!!!!!!

I got sunburned... ><

Boo hoo!!

P.S. Dont EVER go to Esquire Kitchen for lunch or dinner or anything at all!! De food was too salty, de soup had no salt... etc. etc.. So, dont waste ur money ther! Instead use it to buy my birthday present!!! HUAHUAHUA!!! jus jokin...

[I will reveal Mei Yeen's present after monday... ]

I decided to...

wait one more week if possible... if not den i join band automatically...

Those who vote tat I should NOT stay...

- Michelle Chong

- Gaya Low

- Michelle Ling

- Melanie Lim

- Diane Joyce

Those who vote tat I should stay...

- Teh Yi Ting

- Melissa Chan

- Jessyca

- Faizah

- Guest [who r U?]

- Cheah Tsu Ann

Sowie, ya! REALLY SORRY!!!!!!

.: Uh oh :.

2009-03-18T19:13:00.000-07:00

I think I'm gonna stay in band... *hides*

Why? Well cos I remember Samantha [ de disiplin mistress ] saying that next thursday got marching exam...

I guess that means that pretty soon, we're gonna have our instrument already...

I mean, its just another week...

Artisha said that de really fun activities are gonna start...

Besides, being in band gave me new frens n well...

It is KINDA fun... [only before n after practice] except de marching....

I HATE IT!

but... Artisha also said tat soon, I'll jus get used to it so I'm gonna give band another chance...

I have to admit... Yesterday night, when I was thinking all of this...

I had this table in my head...

BAND

Advantages :-

- New friends

- Learn new instrument

- Just seems quite fun

- Only one more week of torture

- Get to wear de UNIFORM!

- I see Artisha n de other band member like very close n like very bes!

Disadvantages :-

- MARCHING! > <

- Tiring

- Very strict

- Very scared when de senior scold > <

UNIT BERUNIFORM/ PERSATUAN/ PERMAINAN

Advantages:-

- Spend more time with Gaya/FIr/ etc. etc.

- 3 new thing can learn instead of 1 which is instrument only

- Also get new friends

- Gaya would say... " Get to see Ben Lee's hair!" or "Get to see Siew Huai"

Disadvantages:-

- Need to remember to bring racquet n etc etc.

- Uniform not nice... XD

- I'm not really good at badminton which is de only sport I'm interested in..

Actually, BOTH I want but I dunno which to choose...

So help me choose... Vote in my shout box [whatever u call it]

example:

You should/shouldnt go for band, Kong!

There.. You guys have only until Sunday or Saturday [depends] to vote...

U can vote for ur friends but dont cheat! Write their names... not urs... Only St Marians allowed...

One person, one vote.

No votes mean I'm staying in band..

Votes for me to not stay in band more thn stay in band means I chg my persatuan n stuff...

Get it?

k...

Ready...

Set...

VOTE!!!!!!!!!!!

One last thing...

HAPPY BURFDAY MEI YEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.: PS :.

2009-03-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

Attention PPL!!!

I do NOT like pink...

I repeat, I do NOT like pink...

Eventhough my shout mix box, whatever u call it, is pink...

Blame GAYA!!!

Ok... I got tat outta my chest...

Seriously ppl, I m a piece of wood...

No way he could have tot I was... ergh... hot... XP

So just ignore what misheru said..

She was just crapping...

Ramya came today...

BIG WHOOP!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to Fir's house tomorrow..

Maybe I can online, maybe not... Depends... ^^

Nothing to blog about... Seriously...

N.O.T.H.I.N.G

NOTHING!

So... Buh BYe!

.: I Hate Myself :.

2009-03-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

I'm so angry with myself!!! I just finished my music exam and I absolutely messed up!!! A lot!! Only my hearing was "very good"... *sob*sob*

Hearing is when de examiner plays a short piece n u have to play it again... So sad...

Gaahh! I cant figure out corel painter... > <

Tomorrow, I shall finally have DDR! (Dance Dance Revolution: Hottest Dance Party 2)

Then I can play it on my wii! woots!!

Nothing much today I guess...

I love holidays but miss my friends...

Ironic, I noe...

Oh yea, I had to wear a... a... SKIRT!

Just because of de stupid exam...

The weird part which is de reason I dont usually wear skirts happens at 1U..

We went there after de exam..

When I was walking to de escerlater (I dunno how to spell) in MPH, there was tis sunburned boy tat was walking the opposite way which means we were gonna pass each other..

I was holding de three books I had..

He was like, staring at me... Literally looking at me from head to toe [I think] until I passed him..

There, now u noe y I dun like wearing skirts..

They make me look weird... XD

.: Nothing To Say :.

2009-03-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

First, thanks gaya for helping me when my internet went haywire...

Second, I'm really nervous cos I'm gonna have my music exam this tuesday...

Well, I thought my class sort of sucked in de choral speaking competition but I really had loads of fun doing it... Still trying to figure out Coral Painter... Haih.. I'm gonna quit band.. Its too tiring.. I'm going to GB n GN n Badminton I guess... I shall tell de Band teacher on Monday! I made a fool of myself in de bilik guru on Friday wen I went to ask Pn. Chang if I can change my Unit Beruniform.. Surprisingly, Pn Chang was NOT fierce.. She was actually nice... Miss Lee was nicer n funnier.. Wanna know more, ask me on monday later.

I've been falling behind on my homework... Had to stay up to finish it.. Why? because...

Band was so damn tiring!! I really tried... I hate to admit but my sister was right...

Liverpool seems to be winning... I wont be supporting anyone.. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Thats all I guess... I cant wait this Friday, get to take pics wit mah frens...

2009-03-11T02:55:00.000-07:00

hello peeps. how's my new skin? is it nice? thanks to Gaya Low for decorating my skin.
this blog is pretty dead right now. urgh.. if only I have the stupid time to update.
school was okayy,just hate that our class kept getting demerit points.
umm.. I wonder who likes that kind of life?

choral speaking competition kindda sucked today.
we were all shocked when they make an announcement saying that the competition will be held in the hall,TODAY.
no matter what happens,we're gonna try our very very very best.
still,we sucked. we forgotten our scripts. ?___________________?.
that's a bummer. =(
I kindda make Gaya struggle everyday.
by pushing her to someone she's trying to ignore badlyyyyyyyyy.
muahahahahahaha~

stiil,there's nothing much to blog about anymore.
I might be blogging tomorrow for RKYR or maybe RKYR will be blogging for herself.
why?? because,i'm Gaya Low. blogging for her.
the person who don't own a dead blog anymore.
=p

Love me, hate me, Cant you see what I see?

2009-02-19T02:22:00.000-08:00

Yes this blog is deserted. SO SO SO SORRRY!!! Blame the bloody teachers and their retchet minds that force work on us all! Geo exam was easy! Sejarah was hard! ish!

Watch out 1S, T, M, R, Y! 1A's gonna win!!! woots! hahaha! Gosh, that girl in my class is so DAMN annoying!! Her voice... EERRGGHH!! My friend in 1R is sort of ignnoring me. What the hell did I do??!!

I can do baby freeze!! I can do baby freeze~! Melissa cant! Haw haw haw~ jus kidding. Thx Teh for teachin me... ^^ Not much to write i think... Yup... BLANK...

Maybe next time?? haha!

.: Bored :.

2009-02-03T05:36:00.000-08:00

As you all know, I want my PSP!! Today was a real bore after I finish my homework. I really NEED my PSP to lighten up my day or maybe just make the time pass by. School was okay except for this part where Dee said there was no hujan in Malaysia. I burst out laughing! Thanks Dee for making me laugh! After school, I slept from 3pm to 5pm then took my bath and do my homework. I finished it all before dinner. As in like 40 mins before dinner. DAMN BORING!! Dah la my grandmother was hogging the tv!

Yesterday, as you all know, was a holiday and I spent the whole day watching tv. While I'm sitting there and my grandma is coming nearer, about 2 meter away from me, she started FARTING!!!!!! My mind screamed one word...

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

And unfortunately for me, she did it more than once. People! Be glad your grandmother dont do that. Have you seen someone walk AND fart before?!! Loudly??!! NO? Well, come on to my house!

I'm still waiting for my PSP...
I want my PSP...

OH YEA!! people... If you come n sleepover my house, BEWARE!! My sister requested my aunt to go buy "The Unborn" and she wants to watch "Ghost House" and MAYBE we will watch it late at night.... HUAHUAHUA!!! Just kidding...

The only horror we'll be watching is Final Destination 1, 2 and 3. Its just GORY... You know... Blood all over the place...

Well, nothing much to say... So say bye bye to R.
[Yes, call me R now] ^^

.: checking in:.

2009-01-22T01:50:00.000-08:00

Yup, I know I need to update more. Its just such a busy and tiring day every single week!!
Every weekday I come home from school, take a nap, shower, homework, dinner, tv or homework and finally sleep. Lots of work left to do. Haiz..

Well, from now on, I swear to come every single school day until the end of Form 5!

Everyone must be confused why or saying "What if you get sick?"... I dont care really... I just want the giraffe they'll give if you come every single school day. I know you guys may think its stupid but I just wanna say...

WHEN I GET THAT CUUTEEE GIRAFFE, DONT YOU DARE TOUCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I no semangat go hip hop class already. Yoro going away for 2 months and he expects us to perform again. STUPID IDIOT!!!! I dont want to perform! SHEESH! So, while he's away, this... this... FELLA is going to teach us. His fugly name is.. Jackson. Haiz... Now the class move earlier to 7.30 already just because the little girl cannot come.

His steps all so RnB-ish. Its nice when he does it but I dont get it! Stupid new teacher. Oh yea, did I mention that my father deleted all my music files? Yea, all gone. Now we have to download all over again. A LOT OF MUSIC FILES YOU KNOW!!~

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

K, I have to finish my homework. During Chinese New Year holiday, I will be at Johor, Batu Pahat. Cant wait! [Wow, thats a first!] Why? Well, because of ang pow and I get to wear my new clothes, shoes and use my new bag! HUAHUAHUA!!

Bye Bye~

.: wow :.

2009-01-19T03:36:00.000-08:00

Yipee! Its only the first month and I already dislike 1... 2... 3...
Ya.. 3 people. WAIT! Make that 4...

Let's see...

First person is a bloody nuisance. Damn short and IRRITATING! Unfortunately, she's in my class. She cant seem to accept the fact that she practically a dwarf.

Second person is the most gedik person I've ever met in my life and I'm glad she finally found herself some friends that can put up with her smell.

Third person USED to be my friend. She keeps hating me and praising herself for "forgiving me" so many times that I just got sick of it. I hardly talk back at her and she keeps saying she's hated me for so long already. So, I just wished I could say "You asshole! You think your so great! You think you can hate everyone and still have friends?! If you keep doing it to them, you wont have any friends anymore. I'm really sick of your attitude! ROT IN HELL, BITCH!"

Well... I wish... Those of you who know who I'm talking about, dont tell her. If you do I'll never ever trust you again.

If you think I wont find out, think again. SERIOUS. think again. ~

.: A New Year, A New Beginning :.

2009-01-07T03:09:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know I havent updated this would be dead blog if it werrent for those who crap in my cbox [thx]. Well, first of all happy new year everyone!

I just wanna say, I can actually feel some of my best friends slowly drift away. Yea, they're in different classes. Yea, they made new friends. Yea, they're closer to those in their classes now. I try to talk to most of my friends at school in de morning. To still be friends but it hurts when they kinda brush you off or dun even try to er... whats that word? er... OH YEA! "preserve" the friendship. You know what? FORGET IT! I forgot what I wanted to say. lol...

I understand what Puan Lim or was it Puan Raja [school caunselor] said about suddenly feeling angry and stuff. Like today when my mum picked me up from school, she asked the same questions and I already get angry or annoyed. Now she keeps asking "Girl, got homework or not?" and I answer "No,mum" and she'll ask why and I'll say "Mum, its minggu orientasi.".

Can you imagine having the same conversation everyday exactly the same???!!! Its very agitating!

Okay... Class details...
I'm in 1A. I sit beside NurAlynna bt. Roslan and Gaya Low. My school/ classmates in the class is Lynna, Gaya, Adlyn, Syah, Naz, Afzal and Kamisah [ I think ]. Class teacher is Cik Norizah. Ketua Darjah is Yap Jia Ni, Pen. Ketua Darjah is Harishma, Ketua Kebersihan is Adlyn, Ketua Keceriaan is me and my little helpers are Alynna, Gaya and Afzal and lastly, Bendahari is Jennifer.

Minggu orientasi is one of those weeks when its just like eat, sleep, eat, sleep. Without studies on the first week of school, I tend to not focus much until the de second month. Haizz...

Oh yea! I watched wall-e already and.. He's so ADORABLE!! Still to go: Journey to the center of the earth, twilight etc. etc.

Ling must be mad or maybe annoyed cause Kakak Shangeeth crapped today. XD LOL
ROFLMAOUTWE

.:Christmas... Joy:.

2008-12-24T02:38:00.000-08:00

Christmas is around the corner and everyone's in the christmas spirit.

Heck, what am i saying?! Christmas is tomorrow!!

Let see, I bought presents for my parents and thats all. Weird thing is, they didnt have time
to buy me n my sister's christmas present.

I'm okay with that but what I'm not okay with is... ya... my UPSR present...
I know.. Everyone is getting sick of me ratting about my problems. Oh well... LIVE WITH IT!!!

I'll shorten the story.

First my father made me wait so f***ing long just to tell me he doesnt agree to a phone as my UPSR present. I was angry about it for a while. Then he gave me choices. iPod, iPod touch, PSP and PS3. I thought about it and chose PSP and he says he wants to think about it longer. I was so angry cause I thought he wanted me to wait till next year while he thinks. i just asked him and, you know, it turned out he didnt want to go shopping during the holidays when the shopping mall was so crowded.

I dunno if I should stay up late until 12 then open my presents or i should open it the next morning. Sister just argued with my mom and as usual, my mom cried and my dad remains calm while I hide in my room and my sis bangs her stuff.

Comic Fiesta was a BLAST!! I met a new friend, actually I met him last year too but this year since we both had no friend, we hung out about half the day on sunday. Saturday was me spending ALL my savings on useless but ADORABLE stuff...

One of the doujin booths giving out FREE STICKERS on Sunday bought their commision so they gave me another sticker. ^^

The comission.... hehehe... I love de marker she used..

The lolipops are bookmarks. The cat is.. well, I dunno but its ADORABLE!! And the speech bubbles are badges.

My CUPCAKES!! Not edible of course... but it looks real rite? I LUV IT!!!! I bought 5 on the first day and another 5 on the next day.

My cute cuppie cakes...

More pics later...

.: shift works... :,

2008-12-14T04:39:00.000-08:00

Lets see...

Gud Stuff
+ New keyboard
+ New screen
+ New mouse
+ I bought "Brushables" [manga marker/brush]
+ I'm home.
+ Comic Fiesta coming

Just Awful
- I havent got my (FUCKING) UPSR present.
- I have grown fatter >< [haiz... singapore...]
- I cant go out of this (FUCKING) house
- I havent watch twilight
- I havent seen any of my friends in 2 months
- I suck at sejarah

Ok... Lets start from the top. When i came home from singapore, de new screen n keyboard was just there. Yay! Whn i was in singapore, Aunty May brought my n my sis to this art supplies shop called "Art Friend". The shop was huge but MPH here was still bigger. ^^
Borders there was nice n big but i still prefer MPH. That night I came home, I slept like a baby. I missed my pillow, my teddy bear, my room... EVERYTHING!
Woots! Comic Fiesta is coming people!

Comic Fiesta 2008
Sunway Pyramid Convention Hall
20th - 21st December 2008
11 AM to 7 PM

Anyone going? I have no friends! Please come n sms me if you do. My sis is going with her friends and well... I"M ALL ALONE!! Come please. Biggest anime event of the year!

More details : http://mizunaga.blogspot.com/2008/11/comic-fiesta-2008-upcoming-event.html
http://kurogane.animeblogger.net/2008/11/04/comic-fiesta-2008-is-coming-soon/
http://comicfiesta.org/

Now, my favourite part, awful stuff...
It seems unlikely that I'll be getting a new phone. I'm just so mad cos well... Do you know, I hear people getting LAPTOPS! PHONES! AND ALL THAT FUCKING EXPENSIVE STUFF! THEY GOT IT AND THEY'RE HAPPY! HAPPY! AND I'M STILL SITTING HERE WITH THE SAME OLD FUCKING STUFF DOING THE SAME FUCKING THING EVERY SINGLE DAY!! DO YOU KNOW HOW I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING, WANTING TO GO BACK TO SLEEP??!! IF I COULD I WOULD!! I WOULD!! BUT I HAVE TO WAKE UP, GO DOWNSTAIRS, EAT BREAKFAST AND EITHER WATCH TV OR PLAY THIS FUCKING COMPUTER. I GET SO SICK OF THIS DAILY ROUTINE THAT I... JUST... FEEL... LIKE... CRYING...

I feel like a prisoner within these four falls.

Wow... i just realised, I'm wasting my this year's holiday at home. There wasnt one fucking outing with my friends that I went to. WHY? COS OF MY FUCKING MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N TAT STUPID SURGERY OF HERS!!!!!!!!!!
Gawd! Stop slamming de keyboard! *slaps self*

I'm going insane!!!!! INSANE!!!!!! I'm commiting suicide soon. goodbye people.

one

last

thing

...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

.: singapore... :.

2008-12-05T04:35:00.000-08:00

hey ppl... I know... I'm in singapore...

Lots of taxis here... =.=

went to borders today.. For those ppl who arent bookworms, it a bookstore...

my sister spent bout 500+ ringgit malaysia on a whole manga series; death note... [thats her christmas present]

i only bought a sketchbook, my ipod shuffle cover [luv it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] and a story book..

i know... what a bookworm...

just had dinner...

was fighting with my sister for the computer... ><

guess who got to go first...

duh! my sis... ><

aunty may's dog is soooooooooo cute!!! ^^

bus ride to singapore was a bore...

no one to sms with... TT.TT all i do is sleep...

sleeepp...

sleeeeepppp

haiz... wonder how i'm gonna survive the ride home..

using aunty may's computer now... de scrin is sooo big...

de shift works too... gawd, i'm so jealous.... ><|

haiz... dun wanna drag so long la... on de bus ride home when i cross de bridge ade i sms u ppl ar... ^^-

reply ar... or perish! lols...

going to de park tomorrow...

got 3 babies here, kinda fun lo..

babies tend to do stupid but very funny things...

i havent got my UPSR present..... wwaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

TT.TT

i like it here...

at least my mum isnt here to ask me to run up and down de stairs, to and back from de kitchen...

I HAVE BEEN SUFFERRING AT HOME OF BOREDOME AND MY MOTHER'S BOSSY ORDERS...

thats why... i like it here...

yea i know... u guys have great mums who havent gone for an operation... be thankful...

k... gtg now... i'll sms... ling, melissa,gaya and melanie maybe on de trip home...

wait for me ppl... ^^ ^^ ^^

peace out!

.; EDITED SOME PHOTOS ;.

2008-12-01T21:12:00.000-08:00

i edited some photos...
first time posting them...
be nice pls...

i think of them as my best frens....
i hope they think de same way... ;D

this is de thn 6 party photo...
wait... i got a funny picture of ling....
but... i'll save it for next time...

.; Randomness...... ;.

2008-11-22T03:00:00.000-08:00

Lately my time has been used to watching hana kimi...
Only chinese soap opera i've ever watched.
I ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO GO YOU TUBE AND WATCH TOO...

Quan is so handsome and cute...
I'm not saying i have a crush on him like gaya does with all de hot guys...
Today i had tuition but i didnt go cos i had to go to the hospital...
Dun ask me why... although i'd love to share it with u all but my mother doesnt let me...

My grandmother was a pain in de ass as usual...
jus found out she's been going to my room...

It happened like this... [the dialouge was in chinese but i translated it into english]
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I just finished hip hop class and went up to my room to change and take a shower.
I opened de door to find that one of de light switch was turn off. Nobody else was in de house except her hen me and my sis was at class. i quickly took my shower and went down. naturally, i was REALLY pissed cos... well... cos she invaded my fucking privacy...
''why did u go to my room/'' i asked. ''u always dont switch off ur room light when u go out so i was checking. blah... blah.... blah... besides, aunty [de part time maid] can go ur room, why i cannot.'' she said. i was even more pissed wen i heard the last part and welll... my chinese obviously sucked so i couldn think of a good come back... den... ''i was only asking1'' i [think] screamed a bit. she stopped blabbering. i wanted to say i want privacy in my room but i didnt know wat it was in chinese... huahuahua... den next mornin, she said ''rebecca, i've been to ur room 3 times already... hahaha... dont be angry la...''i got really pissed off now... i thought `3 times//11 3TIMES//11 FUCK U BITCH...` now she doesnt talk to me... [yay] so she tries t talk to my sis but my sis, obviously hating the attention, just shrugged her off...
i know tis is cruel but.... SERVES U RIGHT U ASS HOLE111
u dun noe how mad i get listening to her irritating voice... pierces my ear drums111

De competition...

2008-11-17T23:46:00.000-08:00

ok... i finally am able to tell u ppl more bout de hip hop competition...
it was at times square, third floor...
de teacher gave us this weird costume...
after i saw a video of myself... it didnt look so weird anymore...
we stopped halfway through de song....
we were de only ones who stopped cos we forgot...
thinking bac... i remember it all... it was just the freaking stage fright...
before we went on stage, my heart was pounding...
de moment de music started i jerked... i wasnt suppose to...
gosh,i was so embarresed..
me n my sis ran to de toilet to change bac to our normal clothes...
my left leg still aches...
for running so hard so suddenly...
oh and one more thing...
she's finally feeling what i felt for so many years now...
i cant say i'm glad... i'm not sad either... but it finally happened...
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GAWD... I HATE MY GRANDMOTHER...
SHE JUST CAME IN HERE JUST TO LAUGH AND FUCKINGLY TELL ME ABOUT THIS STUPID DIGI PACKAGE WHICH SHE SAYS ITS CHEAPER. HOW DO U KNOW.

U. DONT. EVEN. HAVE. A. PHONE.

SHE'S SO FUCKING HAPPY THAT A POSTMAN WANTS HER TO SIGN SO THAT SHE CAN TAKE THE LETTER IN... BIG DEAL LA...

I RESPOND A BIT AND SHE STARTS CRAPPING AGAIN...

WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
MUST
MUST
I
I
LIVE
LIVE
WITH
WITH
HER

i know... some of u have the greatest grandmothers but not me ok.,..
not me...
not me...

oh woe is my life...

.; Bored ;.

2008-11-12T05:24:00.000-08:00

Well, my -shift- doesnt work but my 'a' is fine now.
My keyboard is CRAZY...
Cant wait till tomorrow when i'll be free of independing doom from my results...
Today was my class's Jamuan, to me it was fun but to some I guess not.
So we had games like musical chair, in and out, poison box and treasure hunt...
Many thanks to...
Danu who helped to buy the pressies...
Fir and Melissa who cleaned up the class a lot...
AND... other ppl for their support...
I know i havent update for a very very long time and all...
Sorry... -smiley face-
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I was sick just now...
Still am... I think...
Had a really bad fever...
Forehead and neck was scorching hot...
BUT... My fingers were cold...

Thats all i guess...

.: Fuck it man! :.

2008-10-27T23:22:00.000-07:00

Gawd people! What's the point of CHANGING UR URL??!!
Troublesome! Thats what it its! TROUBLESOME! I have to change it in my freakin template! Seriously, I hate it.

Get it in youre brain!!

I HATE IT!

H
A HATE IT!
T
E

I
T
!

Got it memorised?
No? Scroll back up and read this again.
Yes? Good for you! So dont do it ever again.

Those who actually heed my advice, thank you... ^^ <3
Those who still do it.... well... You must be critically retarded....

*Everyone can change their url to something they really want without me saying theyre a RETARD. Only one chance. No dateline... Just ONE chance...

.: Awesome!! :.

2008-10-19T02:00:00.000-07:00

I just came back from Tan's house.
Today she had a party, it was AWESOME!!! We played with dough, dried it in the sun and painted it... It was really fun and we also watched High School Musical 2...[ ??] Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire... I LUV the twins!! [George and Fred] They're just so slick.... ^^=
I have like... Nothing to write about anymore... ><

.: Ouch Once More! :.

2008-10-14T01:42:00.000-07:00

My thumb got hurt playing the final match against Delima and Nilam for bola jaring. Thank God the teacher wasnt serious about us playing aginst teachers. My thumb HURTS! When I told my mum she said I should've sucked it the minute it got injured. She claims she actually told me that finger or toe injury must SUCK.

WHY ME?? MY HEAD JUST GOT BUMPED FOR HEAVENS SAKE!!

Teacher was unfair as usual. I was surprised that the match with Zamrud, a lot of fans but the final match, there was Azwa, Izzatina... WHERE ARE THE 6D SUPPORTERS??!!
Theres like less and less to write these days so I'll jus continue crapping bout what I dont even know. XD

So...

CRAP
CRAP
CRAP
CRAP
CRAP
CRAP

Okay, I'm done crapping. One last thing...

DONT TAKE MY UNO CARDS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION AND DONT BEND MY CARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.: Ouch! :.

2008-10-10T19:05:00.000-07:00

Lets see....
I have a big bump on my head because I fell backwards at SMK.

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I waited at SMK for my sister yesterday from 12.35 to 1.30. So basically, I'm bored right? I took out my black book and started drawing. People started coming out but I just sat there. I dont really remember how I fell but I remember trying to grab the edge of the bench just before my head hit the concrete or was it the steel cover for the drain there. For a moment, everything went black. I thought I fainted cause i couldnt hear or feelanything for a single second. Then the pain came. Throbbing into my head. I held my head and felt tears flowing out. I lay there, curled up on the floor. I kept my eyes shut until I heard my sister telling me to get up. I couldnt, the pain. She grabbed my arm and helped me up. I could feel the bump coming out. Touching it hurt. Knowing it hurt too. I looked around and saw my sister in the drain taking my little purse that had my stationary in it. At first she asked me if there was money in the purse. I thought she was asking me about my purse with money so i said yes. Then I realised it was the other one so I said no. But she still went in to take it for me. Then my mother came and just stood there wondering why there was this crowd there. I took my bag and followed her to the car still crying, my head still hurting. She took me to the doctor and he said that luckily it wasnt any lower cause if it was, I would have to x-ray my head. Lucky me, I thought. My sister went to McDonald and bought McFlurry for herself and some french fries for me. The doctor sprayed something cold to make it kinda numb after the nurse put this ice pack on my head.

When we went home, my mother gave this long list of chores to do which was longer than when I didnt have a big bump on my head! She told me to practice music, wash my school shoe and all that crap. I was like WTH??!! And the worst thing was that she would come to my room everytime she wanted me to do something. God, cant i have any privacy?!

Today, I have music class. >< so sad. BUT...
Today also got Firzana's Open House!! Yay!! So excited. ^^

.: Curse You Audition!! :.

2008-10-05T05:28:00.000-07:00

Something is wrong with AuditionSEA... Why?? Cos I keep DISCONNECTING!! Why do you hate me so ,Audition? WHY??

Seroiusly people, we are wasting our precious youth doing nothing but watch tv and such. We need to hang out more with our fellow friends especially those going elsewhere. I am serious, when they really are gone, you will regret not having time with them, not sharing a few precious moments. Dont tell me you're gonna do it at the end of the year. We cry at the end of the year not actually have fun [well, maybe a bit]. When me and my friends knew Dini was going last year, we spent every moment, every minute and every second with her. Making her last year at St Mary cherishable and memorable. Even until now, she comes and visit when she can. Why? Cos of the memories, the fun and joy we had together. Even with a bit of effort, you can make their last year at St Mary the BEST year they ever had.

Lately I havent done this, I have been spending most of my time with Melissa, Ling and Teh. It was really fun but for this few months I want to get back closer with my malay friends, a lot of them are going away and they have really helped me a lot. I can hang out more with Melissa and her gang next year cos they're all going to St Mary. So Melissa, if you dont mind, i would like to spend more time with them.

I suggest all of you reading this to do the same!! If not... U WILL REGRET!! REGRET!!!

.: My Birthday Party:.

2008-09-30T18:44:00.000-07:00

This is the schedule for my birthday party...

1] dinner [yes]
2] play water [no]
3]watch movies [yes]
4] sleep [yes]
5] bowling [yes]
6] swimming n lunch by the poolside [yes]

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Dinner!

Melissa, Ling, Tan and Teh like kinda shy. To me the food was GREAT! but i dunno bout them... Melissa n Ling MUST tell me in de cbox ar... ^^ The first few minute was kinda quiet. A bit eerie. When the crab came, Ling n me ate the most crab. Melissa n Ling was playing with their food [XD] but Teh n Tan still quiet with a few giggles here n there.

Ling as usual wore PINK... Melissa wore a blue colar shirt with BLACK short... Teh wore a black shirt n shorts.... Tan wore a dark blue shirt... I wore a grey HOODIE!! ^^

Dishes are sea garoupa, fried chicken, veg [tau tau], philipines meat crab with bun, beancurd, salmon [not my idea], coconut jelly n pork [not my idea too].

Movies!!

Melissa sudjested "I'm Not Stupid Too" but i didnt want to cry... ^^" Hehe, sorry melissa... We watched John Tucker Must Die and Inspecter Gadjet 2. Then we slept. Ling play my gameboy n Teh play Ling's phone. lol... When me n Melissa wanted to sleep, we kept on talking but in de end we still slept... XP

Bowling!!

First let me say... MELISSA GOT TWO STRIKES IN A ROW!!!! At first i sucked but then my dad helped me roll the bowling ball not bowl de bowling ball... i rolled it n i did better but i still bowled normally in de end... My middle finger hurt a bit after bowling. XP

Swimming was not exactly swimming but just playing with water... lol...

And tats all...

My parents took me to Extra Super Tanker on my real birthday date. We ate, SHARKFIN!! Note : Extra Super Tanker has de best sharkfin in de world. Plus, it is only RM28 per bowl/ person... cheap no?

i guess tats all... Bye Bye n thy for reading todays blog post by Cherrie... XD
^^

.: Gosh... :.

2008-09-24T02:48:00.000-07:00

Many many things happened the past few days and I didnt share it with u all... Sorry! Sketsa thing really tiring me out. Haih, what to do?? I want to thank my sister, she gave me permission to use her WONDERFUL script. A great twist in de story.

I think this whole week has and will be the most tiring week ever since UPSR ended [except the weekend]. Hah... I'm so excited.

At school, me n melissa kinda bored cos no uno so we want borrow congkak. Asked Cik Syam, can... Take from the bilik panitia. We went to the top floor, not there. Second floor, not there. Canteen, asked teacher cos we got agravated seeing the bilik koko locked [which is wher the congkak is normally kept] and teacher say its the bilik behind the bilik guru. We go up n there it is. SUSAH JE WALK UP N DOWN LIKE CRAZY PPL!!

I wanna update my wish list kay? just one item...

~Foretelling by Alice Hoffman~

It was my favourite book but one of my friends lost it. I'm not angry.

Seriously, I am SICK of people that i thought was a friend i could trust through thick n thin suddenly being so damn fucking rude or ignoring me. For goodness sake WHY?????!!! I personally call them IDIOTS! Wanna know wats more idiotic, A person that actually makes insults a jokes. Yea, i know. We do it lots of times but this fella insults like she's fighting. I dun wanna say who she is but she is damn idiotic!!

Gahh! nothing to write... EVERYONE!! Play auditionSEA!

.: Birthday! :.

2008-09-20T18:14:00.000-07:00

Woots! Mah birthday ish comin! I'm gonna hav a party thats better than last year. Some of you must be asking what happened last year rite? Well... Sad thing was I invited ALL my best friends [last year one] but only one came even though it was puasa. Only Alynna came out of all the malays. Luckily i also invited Anne and Ling. Only three ppl came. I enjoyed it only because of the iPod shuffle i got for that birthday. I was kinda sad the few days before the party cos all my malay friends came to me and said that their parents dont let them come cos of puasa thingy. Now i'm okay, But i promised myself that this year i'm gonna make sure it doesnt happen lyk tat. For the party i'm having this year, i invited my CHINESE best friends and most of them agreed. I dunno bout Tan yet but i hope she can go. I'm having it next weekend. [So excited!]

This year is the last year i get to see most of my malay friends. My chinese friends all confirm go SMK ade. I wanted to spend as much time as i can with the malays, expecially on my birthday but i guess not then. I can host some other party with them around november or december. 10 more days to my birthday and for those of you who r lazy to count but want to gimme a present, its on the last day of september, 30th. REMEMBER IT!! Hehehe... XD

Those comin to mah party... you want my wishlist?? Ling having trouble deciding wat to buy... LOL

WISHLIST

1] Manga! (by local artists n from Gempak Starz)
2] Books! (fantasy, girls... anything except sci-fi or horror)
3] Notebook! (So i can use for next year to write homework n stuff.... DUH! XD)
4] Pen! (gel pen... )
5] Sweets! (any kind.)
6] Notebook! ( pages lyk from art block, blank pages, binding) {if possible}
7] Stationary! (to be used next year... - my sis tell me form 1 must write our own notes.. ><)

Thats all.... HAHAHA!!!
Aiya, dun buy oso can la... As long as you dun mess up 27, 28, 30 september...
Hehehe...

Okay, now that thats done, I wan cerita bout FORM 1 * dramatic music*. According to my sis, we hav to write our own notes, Teacher wont give okay!! 0.0 We get to use pen, ^^. Worse of all is... WE HAVE A FREAKING TEXTBOOK FOR SENI!!~~ SENI!!!~~ and... we have subjects like sejarah, geografi and all the other crappy boring subjects that make us go to sleep. zZzZzZ Futhermore, [WTH?!~~ i sound like i'm writing the information transfer in section B... :P] we also have extra curriculor activities. WWAAAAHHH!!! Next year have to join back taekwondo... *sob* *sob* *sniff* *sniff* next year, i MUST masuk Pring! dun wan masuk Playne... Why?? cos... all the Pembodek there... K

K la... I lazy wantype some more n i dun remember what my sis told me bout Form 1 or SMK...
hehehe...

.: Tired of life :.

2008-09-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

I know its not really okay to say this but I hate most of the adults in my life. Parents and only a few teachers in my school. I'm gonna start with my parents cos they're the ones causing me pain. My dad gave me so much hope in a simple sms but with one silly question that ushered out of my mouth, the hope died down to nothingness. I regret ever asking at all. My mum tried to relate to the recent feelings I felt, only made it worse. How could she understand? She says everytime she see's me sad, she "feels" it too. BULLSHIT! She's just trying to make me feel better. Damn it! I wish I could go to school everyday of the week even if I had to study. I realised, school made me feel happy. Home made me feel SICK! Why? Cos I'm reminded that i can't ________ even with so much effort.

The teacher I'm mad at really is buy-ous. She thinks Delima is getting worse. When she was scolding all the Std 6, i didnt hear one single word of bad attitude from Berlian. I'm like " WTH U FUCKING TEACHER??!!" She kept saying Delima teruk, Delima teruk, Berlian bagus, Berlian bagus. and once again i'm like " WTF!". I hate Buy-ous people. She never say about Berlian why? Cos she teaches the class. Harsheni is noisy, she said nothing. Gaya keep bringing handphone, she said once. A lot of noisy ppl in tat class and yet Delima gets the bloody scolding. All the noisy ppl in delima dun even come to school damn it! If you ever ask Delima if they hated that teacher, they would say " We dun hate her, we despise her!" But if you as so called "goody -goody" Berlian they would say " We love you teacher!!" *Delima rolls their eyes.*

Today we finally celebrated patriotic day. Not what I expected. We only celebrated it until rehat time. SPOIL THE TRADITION MAN!! Of the 5 years in that school, we always celebrated patriotic day until balik time. The stupid headmistress spoiled the tradition. I can forgive that but when the same teacher I hate scolds Melissa [ who did nothing wrong unless you count singing the patiotic song with a lot of semangat wrong then... ] when she did nothing wrong!! Me, Jeannie, Gaya, Chong, Melanie and other ppl oso included so why only Melissa??!! I oso pengawas but she only scold Melissa. Pity her la! *swears* The teacher said "look at the other, normal students. they sin no need to dance/____ what. try singing like that." When actually. They didnt SING AT ALL!!!!

Still, life is unfair. i know.

But until like this?

Unbelieveable...

.: Idiocy at its highest level :.

2008-09-17T00:45:00.000-07:00

Just by looking at the titlle, you can see i had a fairly acceptable day. The IDIOCY of someone spoiled the day. If she didnt do watever she did, i would have the greatest day ever. I wanna focus on the good part of today not the bad part cos there already is too much of that in my blog. :P Let's just say she was acting very very bitchy like a spoiled heartless brat.

Good part is that we won second place in the dance competition thingy. The part i'm dancing wasnt necessary so... I dunno if the leader will put us out of the group or teach us the traditional malay dance move. Either way, i'm okay. I have to admit, Teoh was good. thats why she got 1st place. Other than that, Dini, my classmate last year [ she moved to putrajaya already. ><], came at 11 something. Excited, thrilled, happy, overjoyed. All the feelings i felt when i saw her. We hung out at "fresh air". Made a shout out on hitz.fm but i didnt hear it... Haiz..

I hate ppl who merajuks when the thing she does to others is done to her. Its ...
1] Idiotic
2] Irritating
3] Bitchy
3]Bratty

So ppl, if possible PLS stop doing that kind of things to you're friends or u'll end up with no one in the end...

.: Bored :.

2008-09-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

Sigh... UPSR over like no fun ade...
Although I love coming on9, I hate my grandma checking up on me every 1 hour!!
Is it wrong to help your mother cook rice, even if you're not so good at it?!
[1] The first time i helped my mum cook rice, i didnt wipe the bottom so it was kinda popping a bit and she just had to tell me like my mum didnt tell me already.
[2] Just now went to cook rice, I accidentally on the wrong switch and she comes in her like an officer saying " you cook rice ar??" i nod. " you on the wrong switch. Neeh, you on the one for the burn bread one. " I'm like WTH?? Why cant you say toaster? I just say "orr." and get up, she starts waving her hand saying that she off the one and on the other one already. Again i'm lik WTH??? If you already did it why tell me? I know some ppl love their grandmas but mine is different, irritating. Some ppl share my opinion others have theirs.

Okay... Like i said, UPSR over its kinda dull here..
No stress.
No checking preparation with friends.
No panic.
No studying like crazy.

Okay, i admit. i'm kinda glad its over but it didnt seem like the merdeka i dreamt of. i juz wanna get this dance thingy over with so i cant enjoy more of... of... stuff with my friends. Especially the ones going to asrama of other highschools... ><

.: Wa Lao! :.

2008-09-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

About the new phone thingy...
I'm like WAAAYYYY confused 'cause when i talk to my dad, my hopes jump as high as mount everest BUT when I talk to mum, hopes come crashing down like hail fire.
Thats why in my head I'm like "woah... okay... ENOUGH!! YAY!!" so... I'm mentally disturbed and considering suicide...
LOL!! Juz kidding bout the suicide... Today got this dance group thingy and i was suppose to teach ppl [i dun wanna say who] but one irri fella nicely quit like its a bloody game when the freaking headline is WEDNESDAY~! Actually 5 ppl quit da group today... I got sumthing to say to those ppl...
GROW UP! IF YoU DUN WAN MASUK THEN DUN! IF YOU SCARED TO TELL US TO PRACTICE THEN GET LOST!
Seriously, we dun mind ppl telling us to practice but if they're too bloody scared then why suddenly quit??!! What kind out idiots are they???

Owh, the irony of life...

.: ??? :.

2008-09-12T20:28:00.001-07:00

Okay... Look, I didnt curse you, I hoped... I'm glad you apologised and I was rude to you cuz you were rude to a lot of my friends. If you think I cursed you, I'm sorry. Sedar diri la...
You call my friend b**ches, sl**ches and you say f**k to them.. Rude rite so sedar la..
P.S. Hope you get 5 A because u insaf ade... ^^

.: DISASTER!! :.

2008-09-12T19:26:00.000-07:00

UPSR over but i cannot get a new PHONE!!!!
Last night at dinner my parents told me that...

A new phone...
1] Wouldnt be fair for my sister
2] Isnt necessary

The not logical thing is, they say i can get something else. I can ask for an iPod, Nintendo Wii, camera... Isnt that much more expensive??!! The idiocy of it is unspeakable. Dinnertime i held back my tears. Went home, quickly finished my music practice and locked myself in the room. I sulked. I have every right to. I think my mum wants to just put money in the bank and get it over it. When I suggested to use the money for a phone, she starts again with the "a new phone is not a neccesity..." crap. The only reason i stayed up until midnight studying and waking up at 5 am to revise again was for a new phone. If I dont change phone for UPSR, I have to wait another 3 years and after PMR until I can get one. Mum came into my room and blabbered about the whole neccesities again. Dad said that my sis still holds a grudge about me getting a phone earlier than her. How does he know? Since my father was going to Shanghai today, I HAD to apologise last night. Its became a habit after 12 years. I really feel...

1] Damn angry
2] Devastated
3] Confused
4] Heart-broken

Heart-broken because of all my work, i cant get what i want.
Look out for Avril's songs from her old album when she was a punky teen, Let go and Under my skin...

Eat My Dust.

.: Sorrry!! :.

.: Exhausted! :.

.: Do you know your love is the sweetest sin? :.

.: O la la la la :.

.: Aloha? :.

.: Hum a song, make your own :.

.: My 100th post? :.

.: Tagged by Rodney :.

.: I see rainbows :.

.: la la la :.

.: la la la :.

.: As it should be :.

.: Welcome back :.

.: Supah Happie :.

.: Guess what..:.

.: Hate her :.

.: Sick and tired :.

.: I'm so-so-so sorry :.

.: T(h)anks = BOOM! = Ouch :.

.: I'm Getting Old :.

.: Boo hoo hoo :.

.: No, mommy. I dun wanna go... :.

.: ATTENTION PPL!!! :.

.: *rubs eyes* YAWN!! :.

.: OMG! :.

.: Bye bye :.

.: Gaah!! Stresssss :.

.: Die la... :.

.: Sien :.

.: Behold! My mascot! :.

.: Yawn :.

.: Blerk! :.

.: Oh Shit :.

.: Hey hey:.

.: Stupid Government :.

.: Happy as a lark :.

.: Ouch :.

.: Great :.

.: Lawls :.

.: Life is full of people. :.

.: Hows Life? :.

.: Chapter 4 :.

.: Chapter 3:.

.: Haiz... Haiz.... :.

.: Damn it! :.

.: Chapter 2 :.

.: Nureen's Farewell :.

.: Chapter 1:.

.: Exam Week :.

.: Sniff sniff :.

.: Anothe week gone :.

.: Survey?? :.

.: Damn U Streamyx! :.

.: *cough* *cough* ouch.. :.

.: I'm sick! :.

.: DAmn you blogger!! :.

.: Stupid school :.

.: Huh? :.

.: Sadness :.

BAND QUIT!

.: Another Great Day :.

.: Uh oh :.

.: PS :.

.: I Hate Myself :.

.: Nothing To Say :.

Love me, hate me, Cant you see what I see?

.: Bored :.

.: checking in:.

.: wow :.

.: A New Year, A New Beginning :.

.:Christmas... Joy:.

.: shift works... :,

.: singapore... :.

.; EDITED SOME PHOTOS ;.

.; Randomness...... ;.

De competition...

.; Bored ;.

.: Fuck it man! :.

.: Awesome!! :.

.: rubs eyes YAWN!! :.

.: cough cough ouch.. :.