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.: Ouch :.

My bottom eye lid got infection... > <
Thats why I din come to school today...
I dun wanna go tuition tomorrow but NOOOO.... ><
Yeerrr... No fair la...

I blink a bit pain... When apply cream my eye like 0<
Lmao...
I slept A LOT today... Nicee....
So bored...

Oh yea, I caught my grandmother RED HANDED today..
I caught her going into my sis's room...
She left the door WIDE OPEN so thats why my sis got lots of mosquito bites!
Wakakakaka...
I was sleeping n she woke me up...
Her ring hitting the metal railing so loud!!

*ting*
*ting*
*ting*
*ting*

It woke me up... ><

Facebook is MUCH MUCH more fun thn myspace... Games n stuf... ^^

.: Great :.

My problems are solved! Well, almost all of them... =P
There was a little misunderstanding between me and Fifi...
I am estatic to have that finally out in the open!!! =D

Hey ppl! Dragons EXIST!!!
SERIOUS!!!! I saw some docu. on National Geo. Channel!!
I have FACEBOOOK!! Woots~!

Cant blog much! I love de band sir! If it wasnt for him, we would've marched!! Instead, we play instrument!! <33

Gosh, I just hate highschool... SO much pressure leh... From teachers, friends, seniours... > <
I wanna go bac time!! Go bac to thn 6... SO DAMN FUN!!

.: Lawls :.

Hey ppl... I'm back...
Nothing to post really...
Just a few stuff here and there...

Tomorrow, me, Poh2 and melissa gonna go for the minggu koperasi thingy!
Samantha ask... I hope not like the perpustakaan one la cos hor, run until I like wanna die de!!

I got number1 in class.

Summore I got music class after that! 4.15 until 5.45!!
But at least I'm asking teacher to teach me Tidus and Yuna's Theme.
Search it on youtube! Its AWESOME!!!!!!
Cant wait to learn!!
Today at band, I watched Choo Yee play de clarinet. So damn fast la her fingers!! Summore she blow so long and so loud! Like no need to breathe liddat!!
Winter is AWESOME!!
Abba Gold is also AWESOME!!

*Yes, I realise I use AWESOME!! a lot...

Wakakakaka...
I still want a mac book!!!

I'm just like, waiting for my birthday to come...

haih...
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Serious ppl!! Who reads my blog that is not a st marian??

Oh yea, st marians have a thing about getting pregnant and having kids and husbands! Its so... weird if you ask me...

.: Life is full of people. :.

I dont know why but I fell asleep after coming home from school.
I fell asleep till like 5 something!! Can you believe it?

Something weird happen to me before balik time...
As usual, Afzal and Alynna will be looking at Fei Qian, I didnt say anything.
I looked up, they were looking at her friggin back! BIG WHOOP!!!
I looked back in front and after a while, Afzal was like hiding...
I looked back up, no wonder...
Fei Qian lookng at our class. I stared at her.. She stared at me...
I'm like "what? Why are you staring at me?"
Her face is.... BLANK... So lmao rite?
I looked away and went home... WOOTS!!! HOME!!!

Tomorrow jogathon and tuition...
*sigh* tuition.... > <
I might have to go in my PJ attire... =P
I'll stink up the whole class... haha!!
LMAO.

Myspace very slow la...
Thats why I dun really like myspace... Haih.. Wat to do?

Oh yea, you know, I think only st marians read this blog... =P
If anyone reading this is NOT a stmarian, TAG ME LA PLSSS!! LET ME KNOW MY BLOG AINT THAT DEAD!!!

Today, me, Gaya and Adlyn doing Flames with people's name...
Gaya got marridge with Eh hem! Eh hem! haha!
Adlyn got love with -you know who-...
So today was quite fun...

Anyway, I cant think of anything crucial to post...

Here's a TAG!!

Tagged by Gaya Low.

1) What was your worst childhood experience
Realising I had no baby pictures? Does that count? XD
2) You're a fan of......
Apple! and apples... de company and de fruit.
3) What music are you listening to right now?
New divide - Linkin Park... (IT ROCKS!!)
4) When was the last time you cried? Why?
Just now... So many ppl are moving!! All my friends... ><
5) How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
One word... eurgh...
6) What will you do if you see a really horrifying ghost beside you?
Scream and run... If he doesnt disappear and he doesnt do anything to me, I will say hello!
7) Your best friend and your friend is about to fall off a building and they are far apart from each other. You only have time to save one of them, who will you save?
My best friend?
8) What was the last thing you dreamt?
I dont remember
9) List out your 5 favorite words
friggin, damn, lmao, shut up, so what...
10) Type a random sentence
I like chocolate

I tag...
-Firzana
-Melissa
-Jaice
-Michelle Chong
-Michelle Ling
-Adlyn
- Anyone who wanna do this...

.: Hows Life? :.

Hey ppl...
Hows the story I wrote?
Yea, I know its sad... If it isnt to you, well, I dunno...
To me its sad.

Since school start cant post that much... > <

Exam result okay okay gua...
I tell you when I know ALL!!
Huahuahua!!
I just came home from band la ppl, I rest first ar...
Later if got time, i post again.

P.S I'm writing another story...
kekekeke...

.: Chapter 4 :.

Chapter 4

I looked into his eyes. He looked into mine. We sat there like that for a few minutes until I decided that the silence was too awkward. I looked away and towards the window. Sunlight shining through.

“There’s isn’t much to do here. You can go home if you want. I don’t mind.” I offered. Seriously, have you ever been trapped in a hospital ward with practically anyone at all? It’s very, very excruciatingly boring. I should know.
“Nah… I feel sort of responsible that you got hurt.” I frowned.
“Its not your fault.” His expression solemn.
“It is… If I just-“
“Wane…” Rage pulsed through my veins as I tried to calm myself down. I breathe deeper.
“If I just stopped for a while, this would never have-“
“SHUT UP! SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP! I SAID ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! I NEVER SAID IT WAS YOUR FAULT! SO JUST SHUT UP!!!” I screamed. It felt good.
He stood there staring at me wide eyed as tears rolled down my cheek. This is so embarrassing. I lied down with a thump and covered my face with the blanket.

-Creak- -Creak-

I could hear the sound of the chair being pushed to my bedside.

-Thump + creak-

As he sat down, the chair creaked under his weight. I could hear him sighing.
“Eve? I’m sorry”
I kept quiet.
“Eve, I’m really sorry.”
“How sorry are you?”
“Very! I’ll do anything if you just forgive me.”
“Answer my question honestly and I’ll forgive you.”
He hesitated a bit. “Okay.”
“Do you still love Rose?”
“A micro bit.”
Stab. Stab. Blood. Ouch. Those words pierced my heart.
“So you lied when you said you didn’t like Rose anymore.”
He kept quiet.
“You were asking me what I said right? I said ‘I can’t believe I actually liked you’ ” I heard him gasp as he realized all the pain he caused me.
“I’m so sorry, Eve.”
“Nah… It’s okay. Do me another favor?”
“Anything.”
”Pretend all the things that have happened before never happened at all. Let’s start over.” I pulled back the blanket and sat up. He looked deep into my puffy eyes and smiled.
“Okay…”
“Hi, I’m Eve.”
“Hi, I’m Wane.”

The hospital had a sort of garden or a small park where patients could walk around. The doctor suggested that I ‘stretched my muscles’, so we went down there for a stroll. We talked and walked, walked and talked. He laughed his big hearty laugh and smiled his glowing smile that touched his eyes. I’ve never seen him that happy before. I’ll admit it. I still like him. But he loves Rose even if it’s only a micro-bit.

Evening soon came.
“Hey, I just remembered something. I brought my iPod. Want to listen to some music?”
“Sure.” I smiled at his friendly gesture. I took the cherry red iPod and plugged my ears. Music filled my soul. I turned up the volume. I couldn’t hear anything else. It was like being in my very own concert.
We continued our stroll around the garden. I breathe in the fresh air. I realized he was fidgeting a lot. I ignored it and continued on. He stopped me for a while and said something. I frowned. All I heard was music; I couldn’t hear what he was saying.
“What?”
Suddenly, he whipped his head back. His expression turned into panic and fear. I saw his lips move. As I took the earphones off, I heard a scream.
“GET HIM!!”
“Get out of my way, girlie!”
I turned around.

-Bang- -Bang-

Two shots fired.
Funny, I could actually feel the bullet pierce through my skin and hit my bone. I put my hand to my shoulder, dropping the iPod on the grass. Blood, lots of it, like apples, cherries… and his iPod. The pain rippled through me as the other bullet broke my rib and tore through the tissue and muscle of my heart. I gasped in pain as my whole body shut down. I could feel the warmth of my face drain away as every drop of blood flowed out, leaving my organs to die. I collapsed. My legs becoming numb as the nerve cells died one by one. “EVE!!” Wane rushed to my side, catching my limp body before it fell. My nose brushed lightly on a blade of grass, inches away from the ground. His hand pulled my face, forcing me to look at him.
“It’s going to be okay. You’re going to be all right” He gasped every word. His eyes wide with worry.
“Someone HELP!!!” I fainted or died, I really don’t know. The rusty smell of blood, still lingering in the air.
All I saw was…

DARKNESS…

“Eve!”
“Eve!”
“Eve!”
“No!”

The next thing I knew, I was standing in the corner or my hospital room. It was empty except for Wane. He was sitting on the bed sobbing. I slowly walked towards him.
“Why are you crying?” I asked. Not looking up, he answered.
“A girl I really cared about, who forgave me again and again for all the pain I’ve caused her, is DEAD!! Some drug addict shot her! She was just recovering from… How could-“ He broke off, sobbing more than ever. I’ve never seen him so sad. He must’ve really loved her.
“Its okay, Wane” That was all I could do. Comfort him. I couldn’t bring her back for him even if I tried. I sat down next to him as he wiped away his tears and looked up. He looked so sad, I wanted to kiss him, make him forget about her. His eyes widened as he realized it was I. He quickly got up from the bed, red puffy eyes staring straight into my muddy brown eyes.
“You- you’re alive! No! You can’t be! I saw you…yo- you were… bleeding!” I frowned.
“Wane, are you okay? What are you talking about?”
“You were shot! The- the drug addict shot you! In your left shoulder and in-in you- your heart!”
“No…” My hand flew to my left shoulder. True enough, there was a hole there. No blood.
“You know I love you right? -Sob- I love you, Eve.” I shook my head slowly.
“You love Rose.”
“I did until I realized all you’ve done for me. All the pain I caused you. And your willingness to forgive me over and over again.”
“I –“ His lips met mine as his hands coiled themselves around my hands, gripping them tightly.
“Wane…” I muttered when he finally pulled away. I looked at my hands, also gripping his hands as tightly as he did mine.
“I love you too.” As I said those four little words, my hands started to fade away. I was fading away.
I heard him shout as he realized what was going to happen.
“NO! DON’T GO! PLEASE!” He fell on his knees, tears spurting from his red, swollen eyes.
“I’m sorry.” I kneeled down with him and held his face to look me in the eye. I smiled, tears rolling down my cheek. I kissed his forehead and said those four words that caused him so much joy and pain at the same time.
“I love you too.”

THE END

.: Chapter 3:.

Chapter 3

Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep

Am I dead? My eyes fluttered open. As my eyes adjusted to its new surroundings, I realised I was staring at a white ceiling. Where am I? I dont know this place. I pushed myself up and looked around. I saw a nurse through the small gap at the door. Hospital? Just then I saw something move.
Oh... Him...

Wane was there. Sleeping on the chair that was apparently pushed to the side of my bed. I reached out.
"Wane?" Slowly, I shook him. He felt so warm. He jerked upright at my touch. I looked into his eyes.
"What am I doing here? What are you doing here? What happened to me?" I asked. I needed an answer. Could you blame me? Imagine waking up in a hospital! His eyes widened.
"You're awake! Gawd, I was so worried!" He jumped up and hugged me so tightly I could hardly breathe. I blushed.
"Wane... Cant... Breathe..."
"Oh! Sorry! Are you ok?" I coughed a bit.
"Yea, what happened?" I asked again. His expression darkened
"You dont remember?"
"No, why am I here? Why are YOU here?"
"You really dont remember at all?"
"No..."
"Oh shit... Oh shit..." He paced back and forth like a caged tiger.
"Hey... Just tell me! What happened?" I grabbed his hand, stopping him.
"You fell down 2 flight of stairs." His eyes stared at the floor, filled with guilt.
"Wow... How did I fall?"
He sighs and sits down. He held my hand as he tells me everything.

"I wanted to tell you that Rose rejected me... At first I was sad but then I started to realise that I never like liked her. I call you and Rose a lot so my grades sorta slipped and my parents took my phone away. They only gave it back to me on the weekends." He stared into my eyes waiting for my response.
"Oh..." I understood why now. It all came back to me.
I was waiting for him so that I could talk to him.
I took step after step backwards.
I didnt look where I was going.
I fell down.

My hand felt to back of my head. It was bandaged. According to him, my nose was bleeding after I fell. I took a piece of tissue and wiped my nose. He was right. Small bits and pieces of dried blood was there.
"How long was I asleep?"
"Erm, a day?"
The door opened. My parents came in.
"Hi mom. Dad." I smiled.
"Oh sweetie! You're awake! We were so worried! Do you remember what happened?" They rushed in and hugged me.
"Nope! but Wane reminded me what happened."
"Honey..." She leaned closer to me and whispered.
"Did he push you?"
"MOM! No..."

"Hello everybody.. Ah, I see that your awake." The doctor barged in. Ever heard of knocking?
"My name is Doctor Arsehool. How are you feeling?"
"*pfft* I'm *giggle* feeling fine."
"Ah.. Ok.. Let me know if you feel sick." He walked out the door and I burst out laughing.

"Did you hear that? His name sounds like Arse Hole!! Haha!!" Wane burst out laughing too..
My parents just smiled.
"Well sweetie, we have to go now. We still have work. Wane? Can you accompany her? I'll let your parents know."
"Sure..." He smiled.
The thought of him staying here for another 8 hours made my heart beat so much faster.

Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep
Beep Beep

Damn that stupid machine! I could feel my face turn red hot as the blood rushed to my cheeks. He looked at me and that goddamn machine and smile a big smile that touched his eyes.
"Since you remember, could you please tell me?" He asked, eyes pleading.
"I'll think about it" He laughed. I couldnt help but smile along.

.: Haiz... Haiz.... :.

Hey ppl, I know... Long time no post...
My fault really...
Me la, go and invite so many ppl come my house so many days...
kekeke...
But... fun wat...

De truth or dare was de BEST!!
haha!
Then yesterday I chatted with Andy...
Ling............
kakakaka...

OH YEA!!!
BIG NEWS PPL!!
LING DOES NOT LIKE DE GAY DAVID ARCHULETA ANYMORE!!
She likes de BOF fella [Hypocrite]
kakakaka...

I'm in a really good mood today cause...
Today got band and I played the clarinet!! WOOTS!!!!!!!!!
I didnt march that much...
Ur probably wondering how can rite?
Well, I vomitted... haha!
In de sink ok... not on the floor...

Tu lah... eat too much de... lmao...

Yesterday, me,ling and Melissa watch BOF..
On... Melissa's MACBOOK!!!!
I WAN A MAC BOOK!!!!
YERRRRRR...... ><
so fast u know... de internet speed...

I'm like, so friggin jealous.... ><
Yes... Friggin is my new word... XD
Oh yea, did you know that Sims 3 is out??
I want... Gosh... I want a lot of stuff eh?
kekeke....

Yea Melissa, I'll post chapter 3 ASAP>..

.: Damn it! :.

Damn it! I'm so freggin mad!!
Its not FAIIR!!!!
My parents dont let me go selayang mall with Nureen, Nad, Nik, Farah, Fir...
URGH!!! They say stuff like...
"What if your friends especially the malays bring guys there... "
Can you believe it?? My parents are like friggin racists!!
Damn it!! I guess I'll just rot at home then...
They also said..
"So basically you going to lepak there la... hmm.."
I was like WTH?? They let me go to Prima Kepong and othr places before...
How come suddenly Selayang mall has a big fat NO there???
Dont make sense at all!!!! It aint friggin fair!!!
And then.. Adlyn's b'day party also I cannot go...
Why? I have to balik kampung and see my stupid grandmother...
I live with one and I'm sick of it!!!
I would really like a place where there isnt any old people at all!! [irritating ones]

I live with a ke-po, like-to-blame-stupid-things-for-things-she-did, naggy grandmother!!!
Goddamnit! Havent I suffered enough???!!
Plus, when I balik kampung, there's no friggin computer there! no internet!! How am I supposed to blog???!!!

Again...
I CANT FRIGGIN WAIT TO DRIVE AND LIVE IN MY OWN HOUSE/APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANT WAIT FOR THAT!!!!!!!!!!!
Then I dont need to ask them for permission at all!!

I am really agravated..
pissed off...