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.: Supah Happie :.

I'm really super happy today!! =D
Adlyn is not going to ________!!! *shhh*
*claps like mad!*

Science and Maths was easy except for a a few questions.
hey, no ones perfect right? :D
Seni... *shakes head*
I did study but only one question I studied came out.. TT.TT

Science paper [objective] question number 3 is sooo stupid..
Someone please tell me why a pencil is 3 cm?? AND!! the answer is...

3.1cm..

LAMOO!!!

okok... gtg.. study study!

*gambateh!*

.: Guess what..:.

Guess what! I'm gonna change to tumblr... Dont worry, I'll still check my cbox here.. and maybe still post...
BUT!!! Link me okay??

http://crispy-apples.tumblr.com

Thankssssss!!!!

.: Hate her :.

I absolutely despise her.

Who? You might wonder... Why, its my "totally awesome history teacher, Pn. R! I love her!".
HAH!
The day I say that is the day I get alzheimer or hysteria.
I loathe her.
I hate her.
I despise her.
I dislike her.

She sucks as a history teacher.

First of all, she talks to the class like we're a bunch of Standard 1 students.
I remember Miss Goh [Principal] saying that the teachers there are not going to treat us like primary school students so we have to get over our cultural shock. Well, she didnt say that exactly but something somewhat like it so correct me if you remember. Guess what? I did get over the cultural shock and I'm so used to being talked to by teachers like normal people and not little kids.
I get really irritated when she talks to us in her bloody sing-song tune.
Hell-looo! This is not a singing class, bitch! Its a history class!!
And, we know you can sing and dance, no need to show off. We dont bloody care!
Go dance while you teach the tarian students!!

I've been running around telling ppl this on the day she said it so I guess most of you know...

She asked me to REWRITE A WHOLE TOPIC'S WORTH OF NOTES WHICH I JUST DID THE NIGHT BEFORE.

Why? Cause... *drumroll*

My handwriting was ugly. BIG WHOOOP!

Besides, I can read it! So can my classmates. AND!!

She doesnt even read the notes when she marks.

She scans the page, according to my observation.

Then, I was thinking... Its my notes. I'm having exams. Why does she need to e able to read it?

Plus, she just reads from the textbook. EXAMPLE...

"Okay, sekarang saya nak... kamu! Baca the first paragraph."

"K-kaum Iban mera-yai Hari Gawai bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA

BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA"

"Okay, thank you... Next girl..."

" * Now she sputters nonsense on the next paragraph and if we're unlucky

the paragraph is long and if the girl is not pluent in BM, she will stutter

and stuttter and stutter and stutter and stutter and stutter...... and she

breathes and stutters even more and occasionally Pn. R will help her

pronounce certain words.* "

"Next..."

See how it drags on and on? Isnt that a HUGE waste of time??!! AND, even with exam a week away, we havent finished the syllabus. Awesome, aint she?

Damn it, I need more kit kat to continue... *runs to kitchen*

...

*runs back*

With us trailing at snail's pace, there will be absolutely no time to revise the last 2 topics...

Then it gets worse, I told my mom about it and she sides her! And that is exactly why I dont tell my mom what happens everyday. She even said "Thats your problem becca, you always think you're right!" I wanted to laugh so bad!

Why? Because my mom does that the most and she doesnt realise it! Some more want to say me!

I'll say "See, now you're angry!"

And guess what she says... "No I'm not! Who says I am?"

And I'll just sit there and shake my head..

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Now, the Flute and Clarinet Workshop. BORING!

Flute : Keiko Nakagawa

Clarinet : Lawrence

Clarinet one less playing then flute. He said something about double tongue. That wa AWESOME!! And I wanna learn that... =P

Then there was a mini concert and Keiko was really really good. Her fingers were so fast and... Its just unexplainable..

So far a great day because I missed tuition but... tomorrow got... TT.TT

.: Sick and tired :.

I am so sick of living under someone's wing.
I am so sick of asking for permission.
I am so sick of begging.
I am so sick of my mother.

The moment I wake up and go downstairs, I am greeted by my mother "advising" me about the usage of air cond. and stuff. Sheesh mom, I woke up late. I know!
I woke up at 11 am +, big deal! I didnt set the timer for the air cond to off, I know.

Scolding me is one thing but comparing me to Jie again really hurts me.
So, eaarly morning already I cried.
I only kept quiet and said "Yes, mom." because of dad.

I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE COMPARING ME TO HER.

Its really frustrating being reminded of how someone else is better than you.

.: I'm so-so-so sorry :.

Erm, well... Fir knows this cause I just told her today...

Yesterday, my dad showed me a little notebook of mine that I wrote in when I was ten.
The first page was my biodata. And the second...
I wrote...

I wish my mom would just...

and I wrote in point form, all the ways I wanted her to die.
I read it and after the first two points, I started crying. I felt really bad.
My dad said that mom found it while she was cleaning up. Then I felt even worse.
Well, I ran into the kitchen with tears puring down my face and hugged her.
I repeated again and again. I'm sorry. I was sobbing so hard.

So ppl, never do anything when you're angry!!
I mean it...

THIS might happen to YOU!
So..
Learn from my mistake...

.: T(h)anks = BOOM! = Ouch :.

I need to rant a bit okay? So bear with it for a little while...

Yes, mom. I'm wasting my time blogging, listening to songs and playing cards.
I should be studying or practicing music right? Well...

Think...

I hardly go on the computer and why? because I'm too busy finishing my bloody homework. The most I touch the computer is during holidays right?

What about JIE??

Yes, what about her? She goes on the com more often than I do right? And she's sitting for SPM this year. How come I never see you telling her that? Why dont you ban her?
My exam is nothing compared to what she's facing this year and I get scolded? ME?

Now I'm sitting in front of the com crying. Why must you love her more?
I noticed. I notice everything about this whole family and nobody realises me except my friends. To hell to those who say family comes first! They were never there for me.
I was there when mom needed someone to complain to about Jie...
I was there for Jie when she cried...
Who's there for me?
Haha! I sound so emo... XD

Then before dinner, what did you say mom?
Oh yeah..
I mentioned about the iPod Nano I wanted for my birthday and mom said...
"Find my player first..."
No matter how many times I tell her I've looked everywhere, she just kept asking like maybe I'm hiding it on purpose. WTF?!

Jie said dad said (huh?) that I am very vulgar.
Made me think of why... I couldnt answer myself.. so, I have a question for all you ppl!
Tell me if you've ever had a question about yourself but couldnt answer it... And tell me what the question is!

Today's exam was... Okay I guess...
I rewrote my english paper [section B] 3 times!! cause..
First one : too long. Bout 200 + words =P
Second one : still too long. bout 180 +?
Third one : 160+. Thats when I thought "The hell with it! I'm handing this in!"

Then, BM paper 2...
My bahagian C, I wrote twice cause I put the perenggan wrong..
So, when I came home today, my finger's were aching..

SHIT! Tomorrow got SENI!!! =O
Die. die. die. die. die. die. die.
*slpas self*
Okay... =/

I feel like something is taking over my social life...
Its called studies... I have no time for anything nowadays..
Sometimes I just scream and bang doors... It makes me feel better but sooner or later the feeling will return, stronger than ever...
So, I was really happy today because, I had no class to jaga and no spotcheck what-so-ever!
So, I spent time with my buddies!! =D <3

Even though its October, I still get presents! =D
So ppl, I dont mind getting late pressies!!! =DD

Teh Yi Ting = Frog phone/thumbdrive-hanger-thingy
Ling Mei Shin = A silver shiny bear phone-hanger-thingy
Melanie = A plushie which is a cow that looks like a mop
Adlyn = A doggie plushie
Nina = A hello kitty-thingy

Thats all I remember... =P

P.S. Is there a Debate Club in school? I wanna join! XD